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Friday notes

2011-03-04T07:48:00.003+08:00

Many people prefer to tweet these days -- for the simple reason that they basically can express themselves using 140 characters or less. Also, because people are so lazy to read lengthy posts.

Nowadays, people dont have time for anything. Hence the short & sweet tweets. But many still have time to judge, hate, and spend time doing useless things. I'm one of them.

From my previous posts, I've lost everything from my wedding ring to my job (I resigned really-- and never really updated this blog eversince).

I'm glad though that in the midst of letting go many important things in life recently I still hang on to the fundamentals -- faith in God Almighty and being happy for the things I still have.

I am now 6-ish months pregnant and have lost a lil bit of my curvy figure but gained pregnancy glow due to new hormones in my body?

Things like that.

Never thought I'd say this but my pregnancy is the best thing that has ever happened in my life thus far. It is the most humbling and magical experience and we shall talk about that soon as I reckon many people's attention span is not capable of reading beyond this paragraph.

toodles!

blogging again

2010-09-15T09:29:00.002+08:00

Its been a while. Alhamdulillah, this year's Ramadhan & Raya have been filled with loved ones, great company & rezeki yg membolehkan segala kelengkapan puasa & raya disediakan. yay!

I'm thankful also for everyone who has been very concern about my raya this year as a wife. thank you, thank you.. we had fun, thanks.. :D. makan banyak, tido pun tak kurang banyaknye.. berehat drp kesibukan bekerja during puasa heheh. my mom in law's rendang ayam kampung was just delicious. i ate a lot a lot.

As hubs is still on his raya holiday, I am not too bumped bout startin work bcos he'll send me, have breakfast & lunch with me pastu pick me up & we'll have dinner later. life as nomads (having 3 houses to stay at) has deprived us of the chance to have our very own kitchen & for me to cook in my very own kitchen. :P one day la ye..

that's pretty much my life these days, very hectic, juggling work & travelling from one state to another; in the process of settling down with my new husband :P it'll be 3 months soon & more surprises in our lives will come so I pray that everything will go as planned hopefully. I am in the midst of getting a new job in kuantan & moving to kuantan for good. So God Help me & i need to go to the nearest kedai gambar to get my photo taken for my updated resume.

Cant wait to charm Kuantan people at interviews. bring it on! :))

the one with the wedding ring

2010-07-22T15:23:00.009+08:00

hi everyone, we meet again!

Some vocabulary updates.

Aidil is hubs.
Wedding ring is Forbidden ring.

So here’s the story. Despite the fact that hubs and I only meet each other on weekends these days, sometimes the lucky stars hit us with the opportunity to meet on weekdays :D so last Tuesday hubs was in KL to attend his training in Bangi & we spent the night at the Equatorial Bangi.

The hotel was fabulous! The room is spacious and the bathroom is gorgeous lovely and everything in between. :) Due to time constraint, we did not get to even dip a foot in the bathtub but the shower was just awesome. (Ps: I have a thing with bathrooms).

The room service was delicious too!!! :D I still cant get over it. Hehe..

Come next morning, hubs and I woke up early to go to work. He heads to Uniten while I head to Bangsar. MashaAllah jam gilak!!! Now I know how people at my office who live in Bangi feel *frown* Thank you crazy cones on the road, I reached office at 9-ish a.m. Bleh.

On my way to work, while dreading the whole jam and everything I suddenly remembered that I forgot to pack something & that I have left it in our checked-out hotel room.

MY WEDDING RING!!!

Can you frikin believe it???

Hubs was I think Mad at me, but he went back to the hotel nevertheless to get the ring. And now I am no longer allowed to wear my wedding ring. Boohoo.

Note to ring-less self: I used to make fun of my sister for losing her wedding ring, now Karma has come chasing after me. So kids; never ever do, say, think, or intend to do bad things because Karma will get you.

Note to hubs: If you google on the internet, there are millions of wedding ring stories which are way worse than mine. Maybe you should read it, so that you wont have grudge on me :P

Oh and just so you know, this is the 2nd time this happens to me. Huwaaaaaaaa!!!

I'm married :)

2010-07-20T12:18:00.002+08:00

So the last time i blogged, i was busy preparing for my wedding right? Now I'm married! Alhamdulillah, everything went well & today is our first month annie being hubs & wife :))

This pic u see here was taken about an hour after our solemnization at masjid at-taqwa TTDI. This pic was taken outside the masjid. We had so much fun taking pics after nikah esp this one because pokok2 ni kat tepi jalan, so many cars yg lalu kat tepi tu honked at us! hehe... thank you, thank you, we feel your love.. :D

Anyways, I hope to get our solemnization album soon, we had lotsa comments on the draft layout, so hopefully it will turn out to be super great. haha..

see you people soon! :)

counting days :)

2010-04-28T10:41:00.009+08:00

*u see this pic? my dress @ Aidil's reception will look sthg like this! Ooooooohh!!!!!!!!!!!

Although work is crazy these days, I still have a reason to smile because I'm sooo looking forward to my Big Day woooh!! but heck, only God Knows whats playing in my mind right now!! So many social functions to organize, attend, etc. And to balance all that with this masculine work I do. hahahha... I give too little credit too myself maybe?

Ok, first things first -- My dad wants me to tender my resignation this Friday which means by August I can go live in Ktn with Aidil. As much as I want to please him, I've given this a lot of thought & I think maybe tunggu la dulu.. at least until December so that I can get my bonus (ok, now i really have to get sthg kalau tak sia sia) because although it is tempting to go start my own life over there with Aidil but I dunno... I dont really have a back up plan at the moment so to drop everything so sudden like this is risky and as if my dad will give me money every month like i'm earning now!!! :P besides, I think he should spend all his money on my mom & my two annoying brothers who have grown to be princesses. Urgh.

But will definitely leave in december. I dont see myself living separately after I'm married. Thats just abnormal & why put stress on yourself like that??

Second -- Ainsafian's bachelorette party this Friday!! Organizer. Co-organizer. Party Planner. Whatever u call it la. Busy busy... hehehe. Susahnya nak organize parties like these & please everyone (budget wise and comfortableness wise!) but pulled it off in a couple of days! woohoo! with great experience comes fast thinking. :D

Third -- The long restless battle with wedding invites have finally come to an end! Yahoo...!!! At finalizing stage now & having teacher/lecturer/pakar bahasa parents DO NOT HELP. Every single little word nak comment! Stressnyaaaaa.... I just wanna get this over withhhhh...

Fourth -- Pre-wedding photoshoot! Aidil decided to change the theme color at the very last minute! And guess what -- I dont have any baju to wear! I only have 4 days left to go look for it! So God Help me!!!

Fifth -- Mothers Day & Ayah's Birthday. Omg Omg.... must beat last year's self at throwing party & present. No time, no budget, no worries will come up with something soon! *cry*

Sixth -- My Bachelorette party!!! cant hardly wait for that.. hehehe. I know J is planning sthg super awesome. So teruja!! Note to self: borrow Aidil's camera! J says the venue is at her place. But I suspect she tipu ok... mana ler tau she will suddenly take me somewhere else. saje je nak buat orang panic!

Seventh -- I havent even started with this whole nikah procedure. Still waiting for Aidil to complete his. Wow. Selambanye... dah lambat, ok ok should at least go do HIV test. *looks over at piles of paper at work station* esok la HIV test.

Ok so you see I have a million things on my mind; and these exclude crazy work. Am in the midst of preparing yet another write up for some body. oohhhhh... boleh tak??? rasa nak jerit je "i'm getting married you know?? gimme a bride break!"

And can people just stop throwing things in my face just because I'm a lawyer?? some things happened even before I was born and I'm supposed to pick it up??

Grrr... so many things to dooo, but will pull everthing off, insyaAllah. See ya when I see ya!

Ps: omigosh did i wear deodarant this morning??? *smells self* yes i did.

Ps2: I have 46 days before the big day! yeahhhoooo.... Wedding Planner will save my life. thanks WP.

Almost forgot, here's the countdown to our honeymoon!!

Huaaaargh menggeliat

2010-04-09T12:11:00.012+08:00

Its been forever!! What issss happening to me.. so relax, so malas!!

Even my Wedding Planner & Makeup artist dah risau because I'm too relaxed. They will sms me and keep on asking when they can meet me to discuss! Arggghhh Stress la.. :p

I love them nevertheless cos I know they'll make everything perfect while I just ikut je anything they have planned for me.. So easy kan. :))

Anyways, I recently got ENGAGED Yay!!! to the love of my life!! Chewahhh...

Cant wait now!!! (so why the heck am i so relaxed??) so here are my engagement pics (yang dah over exposed kat fb) :D enjoy!!

Ps: tsk..tsk.. MOM mana official pics kuuuuu...

hey i can count!

2010-02-22T15:01:00.003+08:00

This will do it.

Hehe!

Goodluck to us. Lets try and pull this off now.

Ps: once we get our exact honeymoon date i wanna delete this & have a countdown to that day instead. haha...

holidays. got love?

2010-02-16T18:58:00.003+08:00

I watched Valentines Day during the hols and what caught my attention most were these lines: "young love-- full of promise, full of hope, ignorant of reality".

Amazing. Though the whole movie was just okay for me, I mean I honestly thought Sex & the City has way cooler & wiser philosophies about love, but hey any movie that emphasizes on love and romance philosophies are always good to me.

I want to have my own love philosophies compiled one day & I wish to inspire people to love the way I see love.

Right now-- nothing matters to me other than my wedding prepos. But I got one thing to say to you still.. as always...

You'll know you're in a right place when u can get through all the crap the place gives you scarless. Muahhh i know u love me. Come back for more!!! :P

tweet me!!

2010-02-08T14:20:00.006+08:00

You know when you leave a place unoccupied for too long, we malays believe that "someone" or "something" will find itself a way into it. Blogs are no exception apparently. U see I get these email notifications for comments people send to my entries & since I have not been updating for a while, this anonymous creature has been dropping many comments and I suspect they're some sort of spam/virus/sthg.

Is my blog therefore unsafe to even be visited by me for I will then be infected by this virus?

I dunno, but here's the thing: I'm getting married people! So yeah just to put this on record because for what its worth, I dont want to be posting up about me getting all pregs and skip the gettin married entry so just to keep the flow flowing right.

And to a certain level to remind myself that I'm getting married and maybe yearsssss from now when I read this entry again, to reming myself that I Am married.

Yeah so we're in the midst of getting things to fall nicely into place so that this memorable day of ours will be special to both us and our guests. You ARE coming right??? :p

This whole preparation process for me so far has been very enjoyable and interesting because we got to meet new people & talk and talk and talk & then of course at the end of the day there's always a price to pay for all those wasted salivah. sighhhh sighhh.... the way i see it: maybe there's a bright side for things to be sooooo expensive for weddings, at least we'll probably appreciate our constitution of marriage more.

But heck, when we get old and stuff, maybe our kids should get married virtually & save all the cost. wakakakkakaka....

Okay, so hopefully I'll come back with more great news in the future, till then pray for us & we'll see you on our big day!!! If you're not invited, you must not be very nice so I suggest you work on that attitude, no just kidding! Tweet me people, I'm on twitter!!! :D

End of the year entry

2009-12-28T09:07:00.005+08:00

The year 2010 is going to be busiest for me.

We have not set foot in 10 yet and already i am booked for half the year. And i'm so thrilled to be sharing my friends' BIG days!! I just dont quite get when people dont like wedding seasons cos I LOVE EM!!!!

I can wear my best clothes.... do my hair.... wear matching shoes and clutches... matching jewelleries (when i can afford it).... meet friends i have not met for so long.... shopping for presents.... cards.... talk about anything and tell each other each other's updates... man.... i have so many nice things to say about weddings that I cannot begin to imagine how one can hate weddings.

I hate people who hate weddings.

I wish all my friends who are getting marrid next year all the best and may your party be more fabulous and glamorous with my presence. :p

Okay, so 2009 has been amazing and so damn awesome I mean i think the word awesome in my life is not overrated at all! The best part about this year is of course my trips to Jakarta, Kuantan, Cherating, etc and my gile banyak birthday celebrations!!! I think there were altogether 4 celebrations! Thanks everyone for forming the awesome part of my life and for rocking my parties!!! But the bestest party yet is the awesome awesome HALLOWEEN PARTAY!! Rrrrreeeaawwww!!

2010 will be more awesome and as much as I have better resos for 10, i hope my life upgrades to having better quality (i mean i started running and i hope i wont stop) and my 4 year relationship should start moving to a whole new level already :p. its not really 4 but if you calculate everything its 4. I dont really care thats just a number, but I'm just concerned with me getting older and i mean look at the tiny wrinkles on my face ????? *cryyyyyyy* (Time to steal mama's night and day creams).

Career wise i'm hoping for a job that will allow me to show my real personality and that is a super damn hard worker but only if i'm paid good and allowed to have fun at the same time. I am hoping that kind of job exists. I have to be honest I feel pretentious doing what i do now simply because I am losing myself as a lawyer and becoming more like an engineer and becoming an engineer was never my ambition.

My ambition was always to become Boss.

Hey so this is a happy entry! hehe which means I had a great year this year and have forgotten about every little unpleasant-ness for this year so you should too!

Lets start 2010 with a positive spirit as we're Really just closer to death as the new year comes.

Toodloooo!

boy crazy!

2009-12-01T09:21:00.005+08:00

The last time I spoke of this expression was probably when I was 12 or 13 when my teenage friends were all going through that phase of hormone changing, and developing desire for men.. I mean boys.

As we grow older, everyone grew out of their boy craziness and liking boys moderately made more sense somehow.

But today, boy craziness staged itself to my face not by a teenage lady but by a makcik. I mean seriously makcik, dont be so bias towards your own gender, what are you, like a widow? :p :p

So I was having breakfast this morning at my usual place and everyday I will literally check my wallet to make sure I have small change. I hate shops that bugs me about giving them exact change but I have come to peace with this whole issue and have decided to deal with it by giving in.

Unfortunately today, I had ran out of small change and had RM10. The next best thing was an RM50. And its not even mine. Its my boss' rm50 note and its in my keeps because he told me to buy some stuff but when I went to buy them someone else offered to pay. I know. Whats up with people nowadays? :p I only have God to thank! :D

Anywayyyy, my breakfast was RM1.80, so I handed my last rm10. So makcik made a bigggg deal out of it, and told me to pay later.

*Me annoyed*

After I had my breakfast (and after carefully observing how many people had come in to have their breakfast hence all the small changes makcik would have made), I went back to her to pay.

At the cash register was this man WITH RM10. I FRIKIN SAW MAKCIK GAVE HIM HIS BALANCE OF WHAT LOOKED LIKE RM8-ish.

So I was positive that she would do the same to me. But since we're recording this in this blog, u can certainly imagine what happened to me! She said, "bayar nanti lah, takde duit kecik lah.. tunggu lagi ramai2 orang datang. Takde duit kecik ke?"

MAKCIK!!!!

At least she was smiling. To the man who she just gave small change to.

:(

i know exactly what to write in my book :)

2009-11-23T23:02:00.002+08:00

I will never forget the day paper pompoms spoke to me.

I realized my destiny was to become a professional party planner when I folded my boss' note into a paper pompom.

Buy my book to read more......

another new post

2009-10-28T11:07:00.003+08:00

No matter how careful you are with the hot cuppa coffee to make sure it doesnt spill, at the end of that journey from pantry to your place, it spills.

bloody hell.

Just before your big day, function, party, that zit conveniently pops out to say hi to the world, and the list goes on.

No, I'm not talking about unexpected events.

I'm talking about being too cautious or too careful in the course of living your life. that bloody hot coffee will spill sooner or later no matter how steady your hands are and you know it.

So what we should really prepare for is not for the coffee to get to the table safely, but for the coffee to spill seconds before it reaches the table.

new post

2009-09-29T14:40:00.003+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya, arent we all happy everytime the festive season revisits us? *smilllleee*

Raya was fun for a few days, then everything restores to normal comfy city life then holidays came to an end and now i'm in the office again. Oh and today's Aidil's birthday!!! :D Aidil turns 27! Amazing. The first time I got to know Aidil was when he was 23. Giler muda la dia masa tu. :p

Speaking of muda, I'm not too young anymore too. boohooooooo... But u know what happened today? I always come to the office with this kerek look on my face, like I wont look at anyone- jalan straight je, cam bagus. So this morning was not an exception. Was walking like I own the whole damn building then my pumps got stuck at some old curled up grey (ugly!) carpet, my feet came out of the pump and onto the cold marble and do i dare to look behind?? No. But I had to since I had to take my shoe backkkkkk.

One guy (old!) chuckled. The rest of them was too sleepy to be bothered with that blooper but will probably tell the story to them friends at breakfast. Nice.

Time chases you when you've got so many things to do and thats great because as a woman u always need to be chased. Na mean?? hehehe... huhuhu...

I'm into this thing this project this thing thats taking quite a lot of my time but if i get to pull it off, it will be a story to tell. Think Oprah Winfrey. Ok think Wanita Hari Ini la. Giler. I want to be on tv! I want! :P

Keeping my day job is the hardest thing to do right now because i'm so distracted with other things. There must be a way out for people like me who gets a bundle of nerves when being confined in a place for too long. Or perhaps i just need to have a friend in here.

Ok gotta run to do some more thinking for the future.

How much of a future do I have if the world is really expiring in 2011/2012? Seriously now.

advice column

2009-08-17T12:08:00.004+08:00

Honestly, how do you offer your 2 cents to someone... say ur friend... whom you know will not listen?

You dont.

Hey, after all, nobody likes to be told what to do.

But they expect you to be around when things do not go as planned.

So do just that.

Setting examples are the best way to impose teachings on someone anyway.

Makes me wonder, how will generation Z take advices? The eight ball, perhaps?

old man's sayings are still relevant

2009-08-14T11:29:00.006+08:00

We; the much younger generation always attempt to prove the elderly wrong, to some extent. One thing fo sho, I always try to prove my parents wrong. For no reason at all (and dont try to relate it to me having a legal background) but simply to have the taste and thrill of having independence in producing my own opinion, which is good i must say. But at the end of the day, we have to face it. THEY ARE RIGHT. ALWAYS.

For one thing many of us can relate to is that saying Opposites Attract. This expression is frikinly flawless that Hollywood should make a movie by this title already! Starring Johnny Depp and Reese Witherspoon of course.

Last night I attended a gathering of Toastmasters. Pretty awesome given that the bunch consists of people who are brought together by their passion to talk publicly and be good at it. I thought hey, finally a bunch of mes.

I enjoyed every minute of it, and went home feeling pleasantly exhausted with a crystal clear realization that I will just die if I marry someone who talks more than I do.

I might as well make a list here:

1. Racing to tell a story or to beat the volume of someone else's voice is the hardest thing to do and I do not have the will to compromise with that.
2. If you see me turning quiet, I have been turned off by ur story or ur attitude.
3. When girls gather and talk, and the only thorn among the roses talks as much or more, will be voted out.

But one good point made by one of the Toastmasters yesterday was; if the marriage goes completely silent, you might wanna start getting help.

Silence is bliss as long as it is not within the marriage. Quote me.

So what if I'm a female driver?

2009-08-12T08:31:00.003+08:00

Female drivers have been incessantly accused for their bad driving. So we drive like sheet yah? Shut up......

And by shut up I mean dont la stand there and STARE at me when i'm trying to get out of my parking, pakcik! That car parked behind me is not even your car! So clearly you were soooo concerned because I'm a female driver kan?

Anyway, this pakcik (garang looking somemore) with janggut and kopiah and cekak-ed pinggang, stared at me while i was trying to get my car out of the parking yesterday. FYI pakcik, my car has that censor beep to tell me if i am too close to the car behind k.. Dont look at me like that ok.. I have been driving for 9 years now ok..

Female or no female, I dont deserve to be babysitted while driving. ish!

When I succeeded in getting myself out of that misery, I vroom-ed pass the pakcik trying to avoid looking at him, when what I really wanted to do was exactly like what deer did to Diego when Diego failed to catch it, "uh tip toe tip toe!"

Sorry I didnt make your day, pakcik.

Ganbatte

2009-08-11T11:34:00.004+08:00

It is pronounced gam-bat-tey, really. A new word everyone in the department is supposed to submit selves to. meaning-- to do your best at all times, in any situation. okay great. nice. thanks for choosing a simple word I can remember. Love.

My very own ganbatte will start from ceasing all kinds of complaining activities. Complaining will get me nowhere but slowing my pace in life. So yeah just fret like a second and move baby. When we save time from complaining, we can actually achieve so much more. And hey if you want to really complain about something, save those words and put em into actions-- write letters, emails, whatever. Dont rattle like a snake and just sit on that a** and wait for other people to make your life the way you want it to be. We care about ourselves, and so should you.

Like right now, I just came out out preparing an opinion and have to start on a new issue, and I feel like screaming, but when i look at the clock, its 11.50 am so that means its lunch time soon! Yay!! I am going to eat a cow! Oh just for the record, while eating lambchop a couple of days ago, i almost choked to death. Calmness is the key to survival in this world. that is another thing you must learn from me today. If i had panicked, i would have not had the time to think of what to do to get out of that near out-of-breath situation.

I'm so hungry I'm gonna ramble around the pantry for food now.

Are you a giver or a taker?

2009-08-07T12:19:00.003+08:00

Yesterday I watched Faith and Hope (or is it Hope and Faith?) on Star World, and I'm not at all a fan of this sitcom, I just came across it while flippin thru channels. I have literally watched it about once or twice this year, and perhaps once or twice last year.

Anyway... something Hope (or was it faith?) said carried massive amount of truth i thought.

"It is not about what you get, it is about what you give.."

This morning, while rushing to go to office after my daily quick breakfast stop, an angel demonstrated those words quoted above.

there was a bloddy car semi-blocking my car and i couldnt get out of it. seeing me in distress, she patiently stood by my car and helped navigate my way through the impossible space and wallah! i managed to get out and reached the office in time!

She didnt get anything besides my thankful wave to her before i drove off, but had she cared about "giving" she wouldnt have demonstrated the act of a true samaritan to me.

I am very guilty of the same feeling sometimes, thinking what will i get out of this and that. but no, hope (or faith) was right. It is about what u give and have given that truly counts.

PS: but when someone gives u something, do appreciate it and say thanks dammit! =p

Hope

2009-08-04T15:34:00.003+08:00

I'm sure you will agree with me that "hope" is such a strong word.

No doubt everyone has a million things they hope for in this life.

I am seriously hoping for what you know? For H1N1 to disappear right now because it restricts me from travelling to places I want to go to.

I was at the airport twice in the last couple of weeks and people seem to be travelling around normally (some with masks on, bravo!) despite the threat of the disease. I am not mad at them. Because some people have to travel kan. They cannot avoid it. In a way, I am kinda glad my job isnt really the type that requires me to frequently travel all over the world. I love travelling nevertheless. But not for work. REMEMBER.

Anyhow, I hope by December travelling will be safe again because we're going to ******!

Who can guess this one correctly, will win a souvenir from me from that place that I'm going to.

Lookky what i found!

2009-07-30T10:25:00.009+08:00

I found the bags that are exactly like my wallet!

Would it be totally insane to get any of these bags now and totally match it with my wallet? hehehehe.

Okay this imagination aside, this weekend i'm off to a make up sale to get hold of some great colors to paint my face with. haha!

make ups definitely can make me really really happy and so I will look forever young! Speaking of forever young, I need also to store hand cream at the office because my hands are getting so dry from the full blast aircond in this office.

With this kind of coldness, i should just hibernate and not work. not condusive for working, people!

Stuff I think about when I have nothing better to do

2009-07-28T19:28:00.001+08:00

It is ironic that many people hate it when you spoil a movie ending for them, when in reality, they will never take chances unless they know the ending, i.e. what exactly will happen if they do a certain thing.

online banking

2009-07-22T16:16:00.006+08:00

Thank God for online banking !!!

As you all must know by now, I suffer from bankophobia since time immemorial and eversince the God-sent online banking exist, I am now cured :) hehe.

A few days ago I forgot my online bank password and so I panicked like crazy but due to my fear for the bank, I just kept quiet and did not tell a soul. I was afraid if I told anyone then I'll have to call someone or go to the bank or something.

Somehow today I remembered my password again and yabadabadoooooo my refund cheque is in!!! I got refunded because the KOOP has deducted my salary for 4 months for KOOP fee u know, and turns out, it was actually for someone else's account but they deducted My salary! They made a mistake with the staff number so instead of deducting that member's salary, they deducted mine!

Luckily one fine day I sebok2 went to the KOOP to see the new flat screen tv and asked this brader whyyy la i never registered to be a KOOP member but they deducted my salary. So he checked and found out the error KOOP had made!

Syukurnya dapat balik all my money. Will not spend it. Yeah right. haha.

While the rest of the world thanks online banking for making their lives easier, I thank it for making me a more courageous person. BRAVO ONLINE BANKING!

july trip :)

2009-07-21T15:40:00.009+08:00

Hello, readers. U know what? Eversince I cut my hair, the first thing I realized is that there are so many people who care about me in the office. I think I should start paying attention to them. =p.

Even the driver whom i never really spoken to tegur my hair. Ala so sweet la everyone in my office. I just wish my office is more like a boutique and not some manly industry. i'm not a man! "i'm a pony i'm a pony!" (hehe saje)

u know what else? my trip to cherating was just ultra awesome!! i found the best otak2 in the world and also the sos for the keropok lekor was just super tasty. i visited the kemaman zoo and saw animals i have not seen before. scapegoat's bulu is really nice and the sound of a goat IS REALLY "mmmbeeekkkk". like really! i've always thought thats just a sound human make tapi tak jadi when they want to imitate animals.

kemaman zoo was just cool man. oh but you know what's uncool though? the HAZE. spoil ler. we woke up as early as 6.30 am to see the sunrise but because the haze was so thick we didnt see anything! just haze and dusty far far away trees :(

will upload pics for your viewing pleasure :)

Housekeeping announcement:
Komen ler... =p

road trip

2009-07-17T13:57:00.004+08:00

Ayah just confirmed that the Legend Hotel in Cherating has been booked! So I will be off to Cherating this afternoon hopefully by 6.30pm! :D I haven't packed as I thought I will be leaving tomorrow... But I already have all the things that I want to bring in mind, so its just a matter of putting those things in the bag (if I can find all those things in the first place).

At 5 sharp I have to leave the office. I really hope I can leave at 5 sharp. Please. Please. Today's lucky number is 5.

Pegi beli nombor.

Haha..

Ok see ya, wouldn't wanna be ya...!!!

self quote

2009-07-10T10:04:00.003+08:00

"You cant shred sh*t"

- said in its literal context when the fox pooped on my Bakun PPA draft and as much as it is confidential, I cant shred a shitty document now, can I?

I am so not over this whole fox pooping thing. We all can be annoying sometimes ;p

significant updates

2009-07-10T08:58:00.006+08:00

Can you imagine how many things have happened to me since I last updated..? Plenty:

A fox who has been living on the roof of my office pooped all over my cuby last Friday- making today the 1 week anniversary of me having grudge over it and fyi, it is still alive.
My segamat grandmother passed away on Monday 6.7.2009- the date she gave birth to her last child, 40-ish years ago.
sorry sorry I just realized that my 100th post is Really my 101st post! I CANNOT count. Period.

So the damn fox is still alive thanks to our proscrastinating maintenance team and its most recent victim is Shabbir, who came back from Kerteh with 6 mini packets of keropok and cleverly placed it on his table on Wednesday night. On Thursday morning he came running to my place to tell me that the fox had opened all 6 packets but did not really eat the keropoks. Berok gile la fox ni!!!

And then i thought for a second: why is it that suddenly when anyone has a fox story they will come to me??? Just because the fox pooped at my place suddenly everyone can relate to me? sad!

Oh and it is worth mentioning that at least foxy made me popular in a different way as opposed to being the topic for 'the girl whose marriage is coming'. Super!

On Monday 6.7.09 at 1530 hrs our beloved grandmother, Mak Tok passed away. cry cry cry. She was a really nice person and the thing we all remember about her most is her famous tagline: "Kuasa Allah....". This term is so universally used that even when we were talking about something So unrelated to God or religion or fate, she will have the last say because she will regard everything as "kuasa Allah". hehe. funny.

The best thing about letting her go was that she literally *glow* as a corpse even more than when she was alive. Amazing how God communicates to us isn't it?

I hope she rests in peace and will finally be reunited with my late grandad whom I never met as he passed away 27 years ago in his sleep.

and to sum everything up- this is my 102nd post because my 100th post is really my 101st post.

100th post!!

2009-06-29T22:05:00.003+08:00

this is my 100th post!!! celebrationnnn c'monnn~

although i have been haunted by a very unfortunate tyre incident a couple of days ago, which i am dying to share the details herein, i feel that my 100th post should be positive and no more whining and complaining about how unlucky i am because i think i'm not that unfortunate to begin with...

i started this blog wayyyy back in 2007, but i actually started blogging in 2002-ish. i cant believe i'll last this long! and i wanna thank every reader of mine for lending me your eyes and spending your time commenting on my entries. =D

when i started this blog i didnt really have any specific concept in mind. like some people have themes and concepts for their blogs such as food, love, etc. but over the years i begin to realize that my blog may have a concept after all i.e. selected scenes in my life i wish to share with everyone because I want people to laugh at me or to learn something from my experiences?

but really, blogging most of the time is just something very natural to me since i'm very expressive and i have improved in story-telling eversince i started blogging.

anyhow, today I learn that there is no shortcut to happiness. it has to be earned. And if you're not happy with something you really shuld not put up with it. Sure God created an imperfect world for us, not because He is Stingy, but because we need to be reminded of who we are.

at the end of the day, after writing every piece of entry, the real satisfaction is when you know you have said something from your heart.

so be yourself and write sincere entries. Plagiarists are not real bloggers.

Office talk

2009-06-22T15:13:00.003+08:00

I have in the past two weeks actively participated in my office's activities. (Something I vowed to myself never to do when I first started working). I am very anti social when it comes to office happenings because I always regard people in the office as old and well, being a Mosanto we always try to disregard other people's existence. We are so stuck up *sheesh* and we live in our very own little world.

(Consider yourselves very fortunate if Mosantos speak to you or acknowledge your existence)

So this is an achievement for me. First, I went on a bus to visit an HVDC Converter Station in Gurun; something I can only dream of 10 years ago (not that I Ever dreamt of going to an HCS..). Gurun is a far far away land. But I was very happy because I thought my junior suite in Swiss Inn Sungai Petani was awesome and very "VIP". Jacuzzi included :)) As you know the bathroom is my favourite place, so any hotel with first class bathroom will be the best hotel in my list of "best hotels"!

If you now ask me about how to convert AC to DC, i will know. I can even describe to you how the equipments look like. I will extend my description to how the converter station taste, smell and feel like. hehe.

Secondly, I participated in my division's bowling friendly tournament. Friendly konon. Everyone was just good. I mean great. I mean Shalin Zulkifli !!!! Btw, I GOT AN AWARD FOR THE LOWEST SCORE. Hahahahaha!! And when I had story-telling session with Aidil, he got a hamper for the same category! Hahahahahaha!!! (Hamper lagi teruk ok).

I was lucky to have Ryzal accompanying me to the tournament. Ryzal was a hit !! Some people even called him wonder boy because when he threw the bowling ball, most of the time it looked like it was aiming for the drain but suddenly it hit some pins! Well done Ryzal! Also people for once had a topic to chat with me: Anak ke? adik ke? Ryzal is now elevated to a whole other level -- from best friend to life saver.

Oh and I also will get my name card soon!! This is my card, this is my card (practice).

End.

rudeatude again...!!

2009-06-15T08:07:00.010+08:00

Why do I more often than not encounter rude people?? Argh!!!

So I was on my way to Seremban for Aienn's engagement yesterday, when I reached my first toll. It was the kerinchi link toll or somewhere there la --before approaching the federal highway in front of Midvalley tu.

Okay, so I had to pay RM1.50 right? I had 10 ringgit with me and dengan BAIKNYA I looked through my car's coin box to find 50sen to FACILITATE this toll gate girl so that she doesnt have to return sen-sen to me.

So i took her stupid sunday morning's precious time by like what? 5 blinking seconds? To frikin facilitate her work???

And to my surprise, when I handed her RM10.50, she murmured without looking at my face

"Lembab nak mampos!"

Woi B****, kalau kau moody cari keje yang tak payah deal dengan orang la. keje la cuci jamban ke ape. Dah la perempuan; tak reti berbudi bahasa langsung!! Kalau aku marah kau balik aku takut kau tarik rambut aku yang aku dah blow lawa2 untuk pegi engagement kawan aku. So I let you go because I didnt wanna spoil my day and my friend's big day. Tapi kalau aku lalu kat toll gate kau lagi sekali and kau cakap camtu lagi sekali aku akan suruh Aidil sound kau! hahahaha.. (sebab aku memang tak reti marah orang).

Seriously, ruginya tak perasan nama dia ape. Kalau tak memang dah melayang surat complain yang panjangnya 10 page kepada PLUS.

I hate you toll gate girl !!!!! Ur so uncool and you suck !!!!!!

today's drama

2009-06-11T08:25:00.003+08:00

I couldnt sleep last night as I had injected a dose of caramel frapuccino into my caffeine-sensitive system late afternoon yesterday around 6.30-ish.

So I woke up rather cranky as I need to go to work with this whole fatigueness going on in me.

Just before I leave the house my eyes were focused on the new pair of shoes I bought last weekend. Which makes it 5 days old today.

Took it to wear it to work. It felt so funny and not right. One of the heels has lost its bottom layer so when I walk it has that sound which makes your teeth hurt.

I didnt do it -- but just so you know, this has affected my Thurday morning and I am about to start this day with a frown =(. I am currently wearing my black heels which is almost 3 years old. I am walking funny. And when I walked through the door this morning, my boss asked me if I hurt my foot.

And to that, I said "Yes".

Okay, the point that I'm making -- What the hell were you thinking when u destroyed my shoe and with not a tiny pinch of guilt hang it there back as if nothing had happened? A little "I'm sorry" and owning up to your mistake will not hurt. It will just make you more classy and hence deserving to have had the honour to don that shoe.

today's wednesday

2009-06-10T22:27:00.004+08:00

Today I feel like quoting myself. I really think many people can benefit from my quotes. ;p

Many years ago I said, "Life's a bitch but dont let it pee on you." This has worked marvellously to get me through life.

Last year I said, "Apparently people are only holy during the months of Ramadhan and Syawal." I seriously take that back.

Last weekend I said, "we (my friends and I) live in a life full of drama. We need a guy who can put up with these dramas on a daily basis. So you cant be with a guy who works off shore and only have the time to listen to the drama that happened to you a month ago.. By that time u'd have so many other things happening in your life. He wont be able to keep up." No, we are not demanding.

Today I said, "That kain is so overpriced. And plus, she's really not friendly. So I wont buy the kain." I was really in denial. I love the bloody sequined chiffon!

So. Life's a bitch as in that lady at Binwani's was a biatch but dont let it pee on you, so I wont let her stop me from buying that kain (one fine day nanti, ingat orang takde kredit kad ke? nanti I buat la... ;p). Apparently people are holy during other months because I got an Aigner wallet yesterday! Today's drama in my life is that my f-ckd up agent made a mistake when submitting my car registration form to the insurance company and so my car registration number in the insurance certificate is wrong! I'm no longer in denial. I love that bloody sequined chiffon!

I'm in a gilded cage

2009-06-09T09:18:00.004+08:00

Will someone free me already?

Heck, I gotta free myself.

Oh btw, dont extend my expression to mean I'm being followed by Paparazzis or anything. I'm just caged in my very own lil comfy world.

I'm thinking.. I want to be somebody in this lil comfy world of mine, not somebody in the world people expect me to be.

Today's June 9th right? Ok that means I have 14 more days to freeeeedom! Yayayayyyyy!!!!

Princess Me

2009-06-01T22:18:00.003+08:00

Lets talk dirrrty...

And by dirty i mean about my mouth and what the heck is goin on in there! hahah..
Well, today my teeth gets it crown =D smile, teethy, smile!! so they're princess gigi kapak la, sort of..

For every crown placed the price is of course what seemed to be like an endless torture. "Sakit la siot," i should have said to Dr. Putri. =p.

Anyway, erm I'm happy, but my teeth arent perfect or anything. I was hoping it would be! I mean after 6 injections and all... kan?

But my Dr. Putri's the best! She's soooo gentle and she makes me feel very very safe. Actually I really like the fact that she treated me like a child, as in she constantly asked me if this and that hurt, and "jangan takut ye.. rasa sikit je" and "bunyi dia bising sikit ye..."

Then how come I dont get a lolly after my 2 visits doctor?? how come you??

The best part about having my teeth crowned is that I now can no longer bite my nails! Can you believe it? I finally can be like other high maintenance women going for manicure and all! Yeah baby yeah!!!

Conclusion -- today is the 1st of June and I feel princessyh!

Will be visiting Dr. Putri in December to polish the teeth. hehehehe.

u wanna see my teeth? here! =D (nampak tak?)

GRRRrrrrr-ah!

2009-05-28T11:57:00.009+08:00

I've got so many things going on in my head right now.

Bearable, mostly. Hence the need to pour it out herein. (The unbearable ones are to be digested because this blog is too public and its just uncool to be too whiney, girls. you know when u shout as in wanting the whole wide world to give their attention to you on fb? yeah, you got me to hate you right there and then.)

Attitude gile saya ni...

So the other day I read something about AAR and Emelda in the newspaper. Everyone who has crossed paths with me would know that I live to "marry" AAR. haha. But u know what, suddenly when he said that he will from this moment on, trust that she will shape him into becoming a good man-- i turned off.

Attitude gile saya ni...

I dont know... maybe i'm just jealous. HAHA.

Oh yesterday the toilet at my office smelled like someone buang bayi in there. But everyone in my office are so nice, I dont think anyone would do that. I mean most people are married except for the 4 of us -- minus 2 (guys), so its either me or Nasyrah. Oh God, can u imagine if one day there is actually a real baby found dead in the ladies??! I think I will be the first accused and Nasyrah second. Of course lah, Nasyrah looks more innocent than me!

Just a wild thought... hehe

And just a moment ago I found out that my whole office is forming a committee to discuss my wedding.

They're precious people, people in my building. (Side story, very funny! : My GAP cuby neighbour asked me about this guy whose nickname is mat**, but he thought it is mak**, so he wanted to confirm it with me. Kalau mak** mesti dia rasa nak ngorat that guy sebab that guy could be GAP too kan?)

But you have Got to be kidding me man.. Is this like The Office or something?? Is there like hidden cameras around me right now?? Why does my life feel like its illustrated and not real?

All Wised Up!

2009-05-19T09:03:00.005+08:00

I was struck by wisdom yesterday. Man, it felt great! And of course I wanna thank that wise person for spending a generous amount of time to pass on her wisdom to meeeee. It’s really bizarre though, the more she talked, the more I saw the reflection of myself in her. A lot of times you know exactly who you are and who you will be in the future, but it never really comes in the form of a person physically present to remind you of yourself.

Metaphorically speaking, (Oh Mr. Zaidi of UIA, I learnt and loved metaphors since I met you) I was sitting in front of the mirror, looking at a 45 year old me talking to this 25 year old me about life, love, relationships and marriage – a scenario you wont get to see everyday in the VP’s office. :p

To sum things up, the stuff she said to me was rather heavy for someone my age to comprehend (me being 6 and all..) but but but… they are nevertheless advices from the heart and from 45 years of reality-bites life experiences so I have to give her credit for that.

I believe everything she said has and will benefit me forever. And I too, will pass on this wisdom to many. In fact, I’ve tried for many many years.

My advice; You will never learn anything if you’re too proud. I propose you tell people your situation, seek help and start LISTENing!

Thank you.

P.s.: Those of you who want the secret tips she gave me, please sms or call me. Please be advised that you will be charged a minimal consultation fee of RM1k per hour. Please note that the aforesaid rate is exclusive of service tax and disbursements.

tayar pancit bini tukar

2009-05-18T11:46:00.005+08:00

I havent been writing about the dramas in my life for a while. I can assure you, I literally am living in a drama!

So the other day I was driving home from work. It was around 5.45pm when I reached Taman Tun. I leave my office at 5.15 everyday and will reach home 5 before 6. My job is dreamy to some, i think. =p. By this time (5.45) I will usually be very very tired and had yawned about 60 times in total. Staring at the computer all day will be a total disadvantage to me very very soon, i know.

So in that half asleep state of mind, I stopped at a red light and yawned somemore. I looked around to see if anyone was looking at me singing loudly in my car (and hence think I'm a total nut) when I saw a toyota livina parked at the roadside with a man sitting at the Driver's seat and the wife outside the car, looking at another man who was changing their flat tyre. Lets assume the Driver is her husband.

I saw the wife, face all crooked, waving at the husband, signaling for him to come down and help her. He spoke also in sign language to which I understood as, "No, its too hot I will not leave my seat."

The wife then gave him the annoyed look, just in time for another guy (a security guard from a nearby apartment) to come from across the road to inquire on what was happening. So now there are two men (strangers to the husband and wife). One changing the tyre and another one comforting the wife.

This situation made me hate cars even more.

And of course cursed that nAg husband of hers!

*nAg -- Not A Gentleman

6.6.2009

2009-05-13T15:54:00.004+08:00

On the abovementioned date, I have 3 wedding invitations. 1 from UIA friend, 1 from Zico friend, and another 1 from TNB friend.

The winner is I think Ezrina-- Yay!!! because Ezrina is in KL. And also Ezrina's wedding is at the hall, I can SO wear my baju paling over dalam dunia, because otherwise, it'll be such a waste to buy that baju if I dont get to wear it. Hehe.

I still think Ezrina is the cutest person in Zico despite Azlan constantly X X Ezrina. Azlan memang jahat, nobody will back him up when he X either Ezrina or Shireen or Elsa because everyone in that chambering room mcm sorority girls. And yes, Azmi is in that sorority!! haha..

I hope Ezrina tak invite my master in Zico... Eeeeeeeeee. Ezrina, please dont invite her!!! Kalau tak I tanak pegi wedding u! hehe.

Ala, yang lain jangan kecik hati because I really cannot split myself into 3. =(

Okay, see you there! :D

Our precious visit to Jakarta!

2009-05-12T15:29:00.006+08:00

Our prompt and impulsive plans to go to Jakarta in April materialized in the end. Yays! :D

I never thought I’d come back to Jakarta so soon since my last visit in December for the Mag Magi wedding. And I never thought this time I’d be coming with my family and Aidil and my dad’s pride and joy, the esastera people! Of course at first I felt like I was gonna be so clingy to Aidil or my parents because the esastera people are outlanders to me, but as we met, they’re actually really friendly and although they’re old, they’re still very very cool. =p

Anyway, I finally understood what my dad has been doing for the past 7 years (Yes, 7 years!) in fronta the computer and all those sleepless nights and late night meetings with entah sape2 in Bangsar and what made my parents so cheerful and young and hip these days. :p Thanks to esastera, my parents aren’t even close to being grumpy old man and woman :p

I brought 3 juta and it was more than enough. Siap beli stuff yang tak perlu pun. But I didn’t have the chance to go to the spa sebab takde kawan. :(( The closest I got to the hotel spa was to go to the counter where the receptionists weren’t too friendly. I can still remember my best spa experience at the Promenade Hotel in Kota Kinabalu. NAK PEGI SPA!!!! Will google for nice spas now!

Highlights of the trip were makan, shopping, shopping, sebenarnya shopping je! And we got to go to interesting places and met interesting people. I now know I will be like Auntie Nordarus when I’m old. She is very chatty and very positive about life. She’s the most beautiful person I have ever met. Throughout the 4 days, I never see a frown or hear a complaint from her. Even when everyone is fast asleep after a long tiring day, I peeped behind and will always receive a smile from her. :)

My dad is of course like that too. But the quiet version. Not chatty but still very very positive about life. His body age is 30. I have yet to do a body age test. I bet I’m 6 and Aidil’s 50. :p

I am now extremely inspired to have my own kebaya place called Muna Kebaya. I don’t care! Don’t laugh at me!!! If anyone copies my idea I will sue you in the court of law!

Boleh blah

2009-05-04T16:08:00.007+08:00

I am very happy for my dad because he is elevating to a whole new level of his career even if it means having to move to a conservative country like Riyadh. Also, even if it means I have to stay in Malaysia alone and not be able to follow him. I am nevertheless very happy for him because I think he's a genius and he has that potential to do just about anything-- like me. :D I am however very demotivated unless I have new clothes and people do not get on my nerves!

That is why my ears bleed everytime someone gives a negative comment about his decision to move to Riyadh and even worst-- discourages or memperlekehkan(?) him.

I do not like negative people. They really make my world a living hell.

If I hear one more person says f***ed up things about any of this I will hit that person so hard, his ears will bleed, his nose will break and his teeth will be scattered on the floor. I will then stab him with my words of wisdom and make him regret saying those negative words.

If there is one thing you can do towards other people-- do not let it be something that will make him doubt his own potential. If you'd rather live in your comfort zone, suit yourself, but do not stop other people from pursuing their dreams or trying to step out of that zone to look for new challenges in life. You unrefined pisa shit!

Jakartah! Jakartah!

2009-04-28T20:11:00.003+08:00

Chanting... I know...

So I am leaving for Jakarta tomorrow with Aidil!

...and the rest of my family...

...and the rest of my parents' friends...

I know... ;p

Okay, we'll have fun and we'll see you when we get back :)

Oh swine flu please stay away from us! :-s

Eat shit

2009-04-26T10:41:00.003+08:00

Lalalalalalala...~

I am in the worst mood right now, but i'm concealing it- because I can!

Unlike some people who cannot control their temper or hide their moodiness. Urgggggh!!!

So I'm leaving to Jakarta (its Really jekarda tau) in 2 days time, I wish something miraculous will happen this time around for me.

Heck, I wish something miraculous will happen to me Everyday! hahahahha...

I have discovered another thing about myself that many might have missed along these years.

I CAN PUT UP WITH SHIT.

But that does not mean people should simply throw shit at me.

(There was this video on fb that cured me, thank god!)

Fate

2009-04-19T23:41:00.004+08:00

May

June

July

August

September.

5 months to go.

I dont know whether to love or hate you, fate.

what year is it?

2009-04-09T23:54:00.002+08:00

Have not been updating until i came up with this:

The day Aidil looks into my eyes and say, "You dont have to work anymore, I'll take care of everything."

Will be the happiest day of my life!!!

Its the year 2009, and I wish I have more time to update my blog.

sirah junjungan

2009-03-15T19:57:00.005+08:00

guess what?

I finally set foot in Istana Budaya for the staging of Sirah Junjungan Tahajjud Cinta.

Finally (emphasis added): Inilah akibatnya kalau kita asyik tunggu tiket free sahaja.

Akhirnya dapat jugak!

hehe! =)

It was a happy experience, but I was a bit disappointed to have Jamal singing all he songs as I expected I had gotten the Siti Nurhaliza/Mawi night.

I want Siti because: I want to experience her life performance, as I heard her live performance is awesome.

I want Mawi because: I want to feel his aura. Betul ke ada aura as claimed by many tu?

=p.

There were some Really good scenes simply because it illustrates stories which I have never heard of or have forgotten. I came with higher expectation, so I was not too entertained. I expected to fall in love with Baginda through the scenes and story telling but to a certain point the narrator annoyed me with his tone. =p.

I also expected to cry. But again,when the narrator cried at the end of the show it annoyed me. I dont fancy the narrator. huhu.

I am blessed to have been given the opportunity to experience it and it was Erma's birthday so last night was pretty special for her as she celebrated her birthday with all of us! =)

We sang "Allah selamatkan kamu" to blend in with the whole Islamic theme of the night.

Gambar!

updates

2009-03-13T10:40:00.004+08:00

*sigh*

The month of March has by far been the most emotional month for me in 2009. I am often with no emotions, you might want to note that.

I do not wish to be elaborative on this so just to put this on record, today is Friday the 13th and two days ago our commercial operation manager passed away after a minor operation. Two days ago I was at the hospital visiting him but he was not conscious and was on life support. I thus played paper balloons with his 3 year old kid.

One day ago my company had the whole ceremony performed on the dead and as I have not seen anything like it before, the curiosity had made me the cat who well in the end gets all scaredy.

It was nevertheless fulfilling as I needed to pay him my last respect.

We shall now carry on with the presentation without him.................................

Al-Fatihah.

Fear mongers are so stupid

2009-03-04T08:56:00.004+08:00

I have to be reminded for the billionth time, that when people have stereotyped me, they will remain as such for the rest of their pathetic lives.

But I being me being dont give u none of my f***ing attention, will proceed with what I believe in.

And today is the happiest day of my life!

Because the VP responded to my request and boohoo those losers pun dapat gak la the benefit from my effort kan. But nevermind, at least they realized that they're so stupid that had I followed their cowardness and not submit the letter, we would never have gotten what we are entitled to!

I HATE FEAR MONGERS. I WILL SACK THESE COWARDS WHEN I BECOME BOSS.

Hehehehehehe...

March 2009

2009-03-01T01:26:00.004+08:00

I am not too keen to be blogging with thiskeyboard ofmine.

See?

ROSAK.

It really really interrupts my flow of thoughts.

So I shall keep it short and simple sothat both you andI will have a goodnight sleep tonight. I hate going to bed feeling angry or sad or disappointed. My sleep is too important to be compromised by unnecessary worryings.

Ijust thought I'dshare thiswith you...

Be true to myself, Stick to one guy, and dont give a damn about what people think about me are my principles in life.

Its gotta be That simple. Thats how I manage to stick to it.

Memetik bintang di langit..? Ohhh tak pernah terfikir pun.

Biar saja orang gelar saya tak punya cita cita.
Saya hanya mampu fikir setakat ni saja.
Kadang kadang tak banyak fikir buat hidup kita jadi lebih mudah.

First Date

2009-02-25T18:33:00.003+08:00

So nervous to meet my new car tomorrow, it feels like going on a first date.

I'm not a car person which makes this even more difficult for me.

Where shall I take my date to..?
What should I wear..?
Will he(?) like me..?
Will I like him..?
Should we make love on the first date..? :p [hahaha, laugh la]

F*** it. ITS MEANT TO BE. =D

GrrrNess!

2009-02-19T20:22:00.007+08:00

When I cannot understand where you are coming from, we will never meet at any point to agree on ANYTHING.

Maybe I am at fault too, because I fail to understand other people but since when do rudeness and fucked upness are acceptable?

No wonder we Muslims get rewards for smiling.

Apparently, it is so damn hard to smile to someone who by the way hates you too, but out of courtesy is offering her smile.

I am acknowledging your existence because I am not rude.

I will never be okay with rude people. I have found my 'pantang nenek moyang aku'.

Sick

2009-02-06T14:10:00.007+08:00

I had just been introduced to the term "soft diet" by my doctorina (i love her because she told me to get a new job if I feel that my current job is too stressful- How Cool is my Doctorina?), because I have suffered from i think-- some kind of viral infection (a g a i n) which means vomitting like every half hour until every single drop of water is drained out from my already-dehydrated body and not to mention the diarrhea! oooohhhhhhhhhhhh.. *dreadful dreadful*

So soft diet means eating soupy food. I want Johnnys tonite I dont care! I have been eating nothing but- cream crackers cicah teh-o; garlic bread cicah mushroom soup pizza hut; bubur nasi with serunding daging (being half kelantanese we alwayyyys have serunding in the house i dont know when i'll begin to appreciate having it around); vitagen; and grapes.

Soft.

I am sick of my soft diet ya hear?

LAPAR!!!!! (Nak Lamb Chop)

more of my nonsense!

2009-02-01T20:40:00.018+08:00

Hi everyone! Welcome. I have been tagged again by farah uh huh... mm-hmm...

Rules: The rules are simple. Use Google Image to search the answers to the questions below. Then you must choose a picture in the first page of the results, and post it as your answer. After that tag 6 people.

I am

... currently carrying on my head hair that is too long. I want to cut my hair, but I havent found a hairstyle that I like. So until I find something I like, I think my hair will remain like pontianak harum sundal malam but I PROMISE I will shampoo my hair everyday =)

I really want to go to

... Mekah Al-Mukaromah =D I should go while I'm still young and strong, and alive. =p I shall not procrastinate opening that tabung haji account I've been wanting to open since last year. The borang I took pun dah tak tau pegi mana dah... =/

My favourite place

... is the kedai kain!!!!!!!!!! i really really really really really really like this place. If anyone wants to leave me all alone, please leave me in this favourite place of mine.

My favourite thing is

... The one and only rubiks cube; and

... Babies, especially smart ones who runs slow so that I can catch em and gigit2 them and make them cry and smile and cry again and smile again.. haha.. toys such as human miniatures are so much better than static lifeless toys; and

... SHOPPING! Every girl loves to shop. If u dont, I hate you.

My favourite drink is

... Caramel frappucino!!!!! Too bad i'm boycotting starbucks now. But basically I love allllll sweeet drinks that has caramel in it. caramel has to be the main ingredient please.

My favourite food is

... LAMB CHOP. I am literally a slave to lambs worldwide.

My favourite colour is definitely

... I googled white color and this came out. =p

I live in

... only the best side of the the the town. TTDI. =)

I was born in

*takde gambar* Klinik Wanita TTDI.

I attended

... SRK Sri Petaling, SMKDJ, UIAM, and to all my friends' relationship problems.

My favourite story is

... *sings* three, four; tenenene nenenene tenenenene nenenene...

So no one told you life was gonna be this way (clap clap clap clap)
Your job's a joke, you're broke, your love life's D.O.A.
It's like you're always stuck in second gear
When it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year
But I'll be there for you (when the rain starts to pour)
I'll be there for you (like I've been there before)
I'll be there for you (because you're there for me too)

This is my hobby

... i'm the one standing and looking at the one with the measurement tape. =)

And I definitely wish for

... Taffy Apples! Dah lama dah nak tau.... =((

Nothing new, people. Still the same old me. And i shall tag the same old people. You know who you are, go ahead and be all creative in answering questions about urself. it really gives away who you are... I just got back from Kota Kinabalu and that was fun! I really wanted to put it in this entry but none of the questions allow me to talk about my recent trip.

gdnite. =)

My first business trip bah..

2009-01-22T16:35:00.004+08:00

Apparently my unpredictable life has become even more unpredictable. It is for this reason that I never attempt to plan anything in life any more than for the next 3 hours. =p.

The unpredictability of life has installed sabah for me next week, believe it or not. I will be going to Kota Kinabalu for 3 days next week, and I expect it to be not so much fun when I do business but so much fun when I get to eat cheap seafood, try the hotel spa and hopefully buy the entire land below the wind. Will bring entire bank to execute this plan. hehe.

Will probably meet up with Shireen Leandra Sikayun if i have the time! (Shireen, u live in KK right? I cant remember. *pukul self*)

I just hope the hotel I'll be staying at has water heater. Please God.. Please take care of me by giving me water heater!

Sabah, here I come to steal ur pearls! (I really dont like pearls) =)

BO's inauguration

2009-01-21T09:29:00.007+08:00

Dear world, I frikin missed being part of history! (of course to Really be part of history I shouldve travelled to Washington and freeze myself out in the winter cold as early as 3am to witness only the world's greatest history being carved right before my eyes).

I watched part of it. Particularly the opening ceremony where the pope (ke?) recited a prayer which had everyone closing their eyes as the prayer was being heard by the entire world. Even with eyes shut, those history-makers had on their faces, expressions of hope from the abundance of their hearts.

Hope- that they have made the right decision; for restoration of world peace; and most importantly for God to bless America. hehe.

After "God bless America" being said, I was gone. Tertido like its nobodys business. And hence I missed Obama's great speech (my dad said his speech was so good). I'm sure I'll catch it on youtube or something later today. =))

I am not all over Obama or anything at the moment (oh but i'm all over my 3rd year aidil-ing annie! woohoo! Note: we should totally celebrate american style =p) simply because this whole african-american being president is more appealing to a country like America, and being Malaysian we dont have that kind of "issue" *cough*

Or do we?

Petrosains, you are awesome

2009-01-12T16:28:00.008+08:00

[It is ironic, on the days and weeks that you're Most busy, you try to squeeze time for blogging, simply because blogging suddenly IS the relaxing thing to do when ur on the computer as opposed to sending and replying emails]

I find myself in my most busy days and weeks. And I find myself blogging. I find myself the need to be in touch with myself for a moment. I find myself returning to my blog. Seriously, everyone should have a blog to create sense of self, and most importantly to be able to treat self without having to go to a therapist. As Dinie once said, (and I believe he got this fact from a website or sthg) "...expressive writing shows significant benefit in providing psychological relief...". I HOPE THIS IS NOT ANOTHER ONE OF HIS SHENANIGANS. haha. Even if it is, takpe, i think there are some truth in it.

OK. Enuff. Yesterday I went to Petrosains!!!!!!!!! =D

I should be embarrassed for trying to hog all the toys (machines to demonstrate scientific stuff) and for trying to compete with the kids who tried to hog all the toys, but I'M NOT. We had soooo much fun that we actually spent 5 hours kot in there. =))

It was yesterday that I repented from making fun of Petrosains years ago.. And every subsequent years after that. Sorry la Petrosains they never made you sound That interesting in the pamphlets or tv adverts. I mean tivos make Mawi and Ekin sound so much more interesting than Petrosains ok. C'mmmonn!!! =p

I cant sum up 5 hours of fun in here so you'll have to go experience Petrosains for yourself ok? I'll insert some pics in here later for you to envy though.. =p

Must trys:

The swirling dark slide! Its so scary I was screaming the whole way down the slide but there is a minimum and maximum height restriction so not everyone can get on it.

the delayed vision camera thing.

the heat thermal camera vision thing? (I discovered the tip of my nose is cold while the rest of my face is hot. Normal human beings dont have cold nose tip. Haaaaa... Menarik tak I?)

the "how-low-can-u-go" platform. its a moving platform that will make u scream!

the electron running thru ur body to make a bulb light.

the mind wave game (which i never got to play)

the helicopter ride!

the hurricane booth!

the earthquake bench!

the go-kart (nampak best but I didnt try it)

the superdig!

THE EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!

But if ur a buta science and a penakut like me, bring an Aidil to explain everything and to teman u ok?

Happy New Year!

2009-01-05T09:44:00.003+08:00

With the coming of 2009, I am now entering my very own bronze jubilee (right? 25 years is bronze or silver? bronze right..?) and still very very much the same ol crap.

I forgot my blogger password and had just renewed it a second ago.

Does it always feel like crap when u first come to the office after a looooong holiday? It sure feels like crap in here right now.

Most 7 year olds are probably feeling less crappy and are all excited about entering the new chapters of their lives. I find myself secretly wishing I have a kid aged 7 so that I have an excuse to not come to work today like most mothers in my office. =p.

Being a mother is such an advantage in my office, believe me! Being single and living with ur parents sucks as you'd be perceived as someone who is happy and has no problems all the time and hence the zero need for taking leave.

But i gotta sayyyy...I had an awesome! long holiday. You mothers kinda wish ur in my shoes now ey..?? hehehhe...

Btw, this entry is my 2009 effort to start things off for this lovely blog i've submitted myself to for years now. I love this blog so much. I read my old entries all the time especially when I feel down and it certainly gives me a reason to stop wishing I'm someone else- especially a mother who has a kid aged 7. =p.

whats a new year entry without a reso ey?

So my reso this year... to get punk'd less. grow up and get a less expensive hobby.

Will save money for the future. *shields eyes from super bright vision* heheh.. oh my future looks super bright! yay!!!!

hair lossssssiot!

2008-11-20T21:40:00.005+08:00

Never set foot in-

beauty places own by ugly dying ducklings

places specializing in hair loss products

Take my advice or you will suffer the consequences.

Experiencing the unforgettable & making the most unthinkable mistake has been inevitable in my life. As I age, challenges become parasitical to I.

*breaks down in tears*

I accidentally let myself into this hell hole- thinking it was just an ordinary hair saloon, with the purest intention to get my hair washed.

Turns out, it was a "hair saloon" which sells hair loss products and treatments for hair loss and those treatments are not something I would need k!

Needless to say, I was being criticized from the moment I set foot in that saloon.

Rambut gugur..

Syampu ape u pakai..

U must treat ur hair from now..

F*** lady! Dont criticize my hair! Just wash and blow it; take my money and make me feel good about myself!!!!!

She didnt even do a good job at washing and blowing my hair as she was too busy criticizing my hair..... =((

That was the first time I ever came out from a BEAUTY saloon feeling UGLY.

Alone

2008-11-19T15:52:00.006+08:00

Being alone has unfortunately became a routine in my life. Of course Ryzal can immediately relate to this, but he's a kid and I'm very excited to see what he will grow up to be, from all the crazymonkeyness and weirdness of Wan Utama. [Wan Utama or Wantama in short, is what I call my family- something like when u dont call ur dad- dad, but rather his first name, example "Hey Wan Abu Bakar."]

Very kurang ajar for orang melayu, but Wan Utama has no limitations no boundaries its amazing how we live like that. And we often talk like this with no full stops just words of sarcasm however very true because we do not lie as there is no need to lie when u simply speak your heart out and it does not matter what other people think of what we have to say. We do not care like that. We do not give a damn like that. We are not stressed out like that. We are so full of ourselves like that. What you think of us is none of our business. Cool?

So I wil be home alone tonite as I could not be bothered to inquire what Wan Utama has planned for the school holidays and Wan Utama never bothered to inform. We are ignorant like that. But when I was told about it, it was Ryzal who said: Arent you going to Penang and Alore-Sir-Tar (Alor Setar) with us?

Ryzal is orang putih like that. He cant speak Bahasa Melayu like that. Thats the end of the world for other families. Not Wan Utama.

Things to do tonite:

Lock front door but dont have to lock or even close the bathroom door hey!

Look out for hantu.

Do fun projects.

Go out til very late, watch midnight movies.

.....ngh I have work tomorrow morning. My parents are very very thankful for this I betcha.

Abort all plans except closing bathroom door.

tagged!

2008-11-08T18:16:00.005+08:00

1) Take a recent picture of yourself or take a picture of yourself right now.
2) Don't change your clothes, don't fix your hair...just take a picture.
3) Post that picture with NO editing.
4) Post these instruction with your picture.
5) Tag 10 people to do this

Here are the rules:

Link to your tagger and list these rules on your blog.
Share seven facts about yourself on your blog – some random, some weird.
Tag seven people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs.
Let them know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their blogs.

This tanduk setan pic is unfortunately my latest pic. I know its edited and that's against the rules, but I just wanna show off what my new phone can do, ok? hehehehe...

What else does the rule say...? Oh link Farah.

Pastu... 7 facts about myself ke? *malu*

Satu- I bite my nails like its nobodys business and my mother threatened me to stop by saying I will never get married because when its time to sarung cincin, my jari will look hideous. I told mom I will wear kuku palsu.

Dua- Do u know those kacang tanah with yellow covered skin (the skin is made out of tepung and the yellow color is the artificial coloring)? When I eat those nuts, I will suck on the salty yellow colored skin, eat the skin and throw away the kacang.

Tiga- I have a secret handshake with my little brother Ryzal. Whenever he wants anything from me or I want anything from him, either one of us must first perform the secret handshake. Its top secret stuff, no one in the family knows how the handshake looks like.

Empat- I secretly want to be a relationship expert, but nothing like a fortune teller u know. I want to do this for a living because this is my passion, advising people, but not advising people by producing legal opinion. I am however stuck with the latter.

Lima- Everybody thinks I am sombong when they first get to know me. I'm sorry I inherited a lot of my dad's traits although I look more like my mom. But if you catch me at the right time I'm actually quite chirpy like the Starbucks' baristas.

Enam- I am my mother's masseuse. She used to pay me rm5 when i was younger but now with the unpredictable harga minyak, she pays me rm10.

Tujuh- I am sucha makcik, I am really really really into fabrics and fesyen baju kurung! I think baju kurung is never outdated and it is so interesting. My interest extends to kebayas as well.

Pastu... tag 7 people ke?

1. Dinie

2. Ainsafian

3. Yaty

4. Shireen

5. Aadela

6. Ayah (I'm running out of people)

7. Kiki

Okay I hope everyone will have a better pic than mine! Byeeeee.... =)

Losing mac............................

2008-11-04T10:57:00.005+08:00

This morning, the hot fm a.m. crew talked about taking something that belongs to others. I was tempted to give them a ring while driving to work this morning, until they drew a context to that hot chat topic, i.e. taking someone else's partner or significant other.

It is understandable that in the malay realm the context of taking other's possessions are always being directed to someone's husband, wife, boyfriend, girlfriend; for the simple reason- those persons are always the subject of "theft".

Being a pseudo-malay [*find definition of pseudo-malay below], I struggle to understand how people can live with no boundaries and limitations when it comes to having desire towards another being. Ideally, many people blame it on the imperfections of being a human being, but I personally think as human beings we are granted with a faculty that has the ability to control those imperfections.

Having said that, I advice you to have firm principles in life, for you will be able to go through any temptations if guided by firm principles.

I always advise people on the dos and donts of minggling with another being, particularly the opposite sex. But at the end of the day, its a matter of principle. I shall not impose my beliefs on you, but I can keep reminding you.

If people were to have a clear idea of the boundaries they must observe, maybe we dont have to discuss the said hot chat topic.

But I reckon we will never have a perfect world.

So the context was the boundary that has been set and I oblige to it. For my story is in another context.

I lost my M.A.C lightful compact powder to someone. This is so devastating to me because as a student I dreamt of possessing this make-up brand. Everytime I had special occasions in school, I'd always use my mom's brands which were Estee Lauder, Dior, and other orang tua brands. But I secretly had my own favorite brand and I secretly wished that one day I will be able to own any make-up of M.A.C.

The day I bought my own M.A.C, was the day I ended all my M.A.C googling activities. For there was no need to google and stare at the pictures anymore. Ilya had witnessed my joy!(ful) moment so she can tell you it was not an ordinary purchase for me, it was an achievement.

Its okay if you cannot understand how women like Mama, Ilya and I get stirred and emotionally aroused when we puchase beauty products. But as far as we are concerned, make- ups are more than just the tool that makes the face pretty.

It hands you the confidence even on your roughest day. When I know I will not do well for a paper in law school, instead of sulking on how I should've studied harder or go out less, I get ready 30 minutes before the exam and doll myself up with make-up. I will then tell myself: If I am going to fail this paper, at least I do it beautifully. Silly I know, but make-up is my bestest buddy and my all time therapy.

Sometimes people take your stuff because they think you can easily afford it. Little do they know that people like me get what I want because I work for it.

This is a reminder sent to me to be a little more careful and not so trusting. Apparently people are only holy during the months of Ramadhan and Syawal.

*Pseudo-malay: English speaking malay with scripted perception about rempits and other malays' unacceptable social behaviour. Socializes in clean, civilized manner.

What is wrong with you, bin lady?

2008-10-31T15:38:00.007+08:00

I have been observing the bin lady who comes in at a certain a.m and at 3p.m. everyday to my department to collect our wastes in our waste paper baskets. [I'm not sure what time she comes in the morning because I had not awaken to really notice. I am only awake after lunch, bossssss.... *tone mengampu*]

I have been watching her for about a month now.

She would collect wastes from each and every bin, Except mine!

So today, I swapped my bin with my boss' bin.

At 3p.m., bin lady came in with a plastik hitam in her right hand. As usual, she did not even come near my bin (previously my boss' bin). She peeped at my boss' bin (previously my bin).

....She then walked away. Without clearing my boss' bin.

I was stumped!

Could she have known that I had swapped the bins?
Could bin lady be clever enough to have read me and my wicked unsuccessful plan?
WHY wont you pick up my wastes bin lady??? WHY????

I am now obsessed to win bin lady's heart. I will stalk her. I will seduce her as if she's my bakal mak mertua!

Tak suka tau metrosexual men

2008-10-26T12:55:00.009+08:00

Dandy, metro, narcissist- tak berkenan!

Have u ever eaten a bad grape? I just did, blueghhh!

A bad grape is more often than not, better than having to hear or see a dandy man talk. They should not live in my world. They hog my space in my shops.

they- should have died with the people of sodom.

I just came back from the Zara, Massimo Dutti and Pull & Bear warehouse sale. There were a few dandy men and one got on my nerve. There will always be that one bugger who will say or do something to me at the verge of me starting to convince myself, they too deserve to be there to enjoy those ridiculous discounts.

So dandy man said: White jackets should never exist. Who ever thought of white jackets!

Resting on my arm, was a white Zara jacket.

job-bubbaluba riang sebenar yeah

2008-10-20T15:45:00.002+08:00

Dont you just hate it when ur given something to do, and you know what to do, but you dont know where to begin.....?

I love my job today.

But why is my job so susah? *menangis*

I figured I should blog this when I spent 30 minutes of staring at nothingness of the monitor, not knowing where to begin.

[What was I thinking entering the world of public utility engineeriousity?]

I should get the hang of this in one thou years. Lucky stars, I'm counting on you.

Good luck to me.... And to the rest of you monitor-staring blurists.

Together Forever

2008-10-19T22:40:00.005+08:00

This is the gift I got this week. *Smmmile*

I always get presents. I love presents.

I cant wait to start reading this book!! I've memorized On a date, so I am now moving on to the next book.

My passion and thirst for learning about human behaviour will never stop and I cannot wait to share my knowledge with my friends who have DTR headaches. (Haha)

Thank you AIDIL for this unbirthday gift!!! =D. Suka!

I need ∞infinity∞ money

2008-10-17T10:22:00.012+08:00

Despite having only 60 minutes for lunch everyday, (I count by the minute to prolong the time because pleaaaase la, I actually chew my food properly okay, so I eat verry verry slow... oh and in between, I yap. Hehe) sometimes I'll go back to my pseudo-mansion (I'm making fun of my house, not bragging about it, mind u) which is about 20 minutes away.

A fooking waste of time I know.

But, mannn, the feeling...... is priceless.

It instantly lifts up mother of all headaches, the Migrain; and the lil toddler headaches, the headache in the eye; headache from people who do not wear deodarants; headache from staring too long at scrabble on the computer (whoops); starting-my-own-business headache; and oh i sometimes get the what-to-eat-for-lunch headache. Spoilt for choice we are, Damansaraians.

And of course my friends still have the DTR headache. DTR -"define the relationship".

I then thought: If I can buy a house somewhere near to my office, which is only a step away from my cuby for instance, then i could go home for lunch everyday and actually have at least what? 45 minutes of pricelessness?

Sadly sadly sadly... I work in Bangsar and a little bird told me that houses there begin from 765489035612K to 986222564533981017653427.5mil!!

Takpela......................................................................

birthday came early this year!

2008-10-14T08:31:00.006+08:00

Quotable Quote: This question was put to me when I sarcastically told Mosantos they should read my blog more.

"How do you know what to write in your blog?"

Hoi Mat! Soalan apa tu?? HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

As much as I never "fail to amaze" them, hehe, they never fail to amaze me as well.

And.... We're all going to Jakarta for Mag's wedding in December and not just on any date in December, it will be on my BIRTHDAY!!!!! (You do know that's on the 11th, dont you?)

So I technically bought myself a birthday present already. hehe.

I cant wait to go to Jakarta!

I am so broke right now- thank God for my not-so-proud-of savings. =p.

Go on suckers, give me ur wishlists.... I'll make em come true. Hohoho Merry Christmas!

Shop Wise indeed

2008-10-08T10:33:00.010+08:00

It is just too cliche to be quoting "be careful what you wish for", but seriously... I'll have to be very careful of what I long for from today onwards...

I remember wishing for a new handphone about a couple of months ago, and by wishing i mean- literally asking Aidil to give it to me as a birthday present (haha).

Turns out, while other girls (real people i know, i'm not making this up, this is not an illustration) go to shopping malls all dressed up just to stop every 5 minutes to take their own pics; I mean seriously, If u come from anywhere within 50 km from the shopping mall, just dont bother taking pics of yourself at the shopping mall just to add another album in friendster or facebook. I am tired of seeing the same face and different clothes that I know exactly what the price is and where you bought it.

Because I really shop and not pegi shopping mall to take pics. It is not an event at all, when you go to that shopping mall every other day doing the same thing.

And of course in Dinie's words, "because I can offer a good conversation over a cuppa coffee" or whatever it is you're eating, I do not need to pause every 5 seconds to take my own pics; or the pic of the food that I just ordered for that matter. Yea yea yea its bloggable but seriously now...?

So I always shop seriously and there is no way I was getting recognition for that, until...... I was announced as the 5th winner of the One Utama's Shop Wise Win Big contest! =D

I won a Sony Ericsson T650i handphone and i thank God for it because:

1. I wanted to get rid of my flip phone because selalu rosak. (i love the KRZR nevertheless)

2. I'd rather win the hp than winning OSIM's giddy up work out machine.

3. I gave Aidil 2 choices for my birthday present checklist. Handphone or diamond ring.

Looks like he'll have to get me the diamond ring now. =p

Respetos

2008-09-26T10:08:00.005+08:00

The title of this entry is in Spanish, in hope for my blog to appear in the list when the Spanish google for the word 'respect'. Yea, fat chance, i know.

With the festive season coming, so do headaches and arguments about whether or not the Wan Utama should host a (grand) open house. Given the fact that we are fishes out of water when it comes to organizing social events because we dgad and we are people who rely on other people religiously; the Planning Division of the Female Department is faced with a lot of trouble. And by Planning Division I mean Me. Always Me. Not exaggerated enough. Alwaaaaaaayyyyyssssss Me. There.

But-
Because I failed to realize this dream last year, I am determine to get it done this time around because hey- I get to be all dressed to the nine and so will my mom (she enjoys only this part of the event, jangan tipu). haha.

The organizing has taken place, and check this- because this task is meant for mothers and makciks to do, i.e. because in other families, mothers are the Planning Division, but in Wan Utama, we have a deary, special, one of a kind mom; who wants to see results per se, someone has to do the dirrrty job kan?

I enjoy it, seriously. Except when these caterers start calling me Puan. Thank you very much, all of you just pronounced me as Wife, Mother, Makcik, Mak Ngah if u must. "Its like taking a bullet" Carrie would say. *sigh*

It is nevertheless a sign of respect. And I applaud you caterers for that. But sorry I have to reject your proposals. The Planning Division refuses to justify reasons for our rejection. Common sense will tell you, we are people who cannot afford your quotations. =p.

Now that we are in the whole respect area, and only 4 days away from Raya(!), I take myself to this year's 4th of June, when i paid my last respect to my dear friend, Salman. Salman was killed in a langgar lari accident and it shocked the entire SSP clan. Most of us were at his funeral and I let my tears fell during the talkin. I havent seen neither Salman nor the SSP clan for almost 12 years, and hey, who'd have thought God reunited us at this holy place that reminded us of our existence and our abolition.

This Hari Raya is a good time for all of us to pay our respects to our parents, siblings, relatives, colleagues and of course those who have left us.

Those down under will be very sad with the coming of Syawal as they will go back to their daily routine of being questioned and judged. How do we feel about the coming of Syawal? The total opposite, right?

Selamat Hari Raya

2008-09-23T15:37:00.011+08:00

(Searching high and low for Islamic calendar to know what day of Ramadhan is it)
Are there no Islamic Calendars in this chilly lagi beamy office??

*checks my American phone*
Nope. No Islamic calendar in here.

*makes reminder note*
MUST BUY ISLAMIC CALENDAR.

To be counting secara logic, today is the 24th of Ramadhan is it not?

So why does my hunger, fatigueness, sleepyness, migrain-ess and grumpiness resembles my previous state of unhealthiness on the 1st day of Ramadhan..? Hmmm. Owh. I am technically on my 1st day again *blushes* after having had my exemption.

It is now 3:44pm and it feels as though I have been in this office for eternity. This very final week before Hari Raya is a real challenge I tell ya. Can u hear me squawking in here? *SQWWWUUAAKKK* I mean, seriously, I have been dreaming of taking ELs for 2 days in a row now.

After sahur, I'd sleep and just before I get up to get ready to work, I'd have these dreams. The 1st one, I swear I looked like Angelina Jolie but I was me. I had a partner in crime, travelled to strange places, attempting to escape from someone who was chasing us. Very interesting dream, but all I could think about while I was on the run was- What do I tell my boss for not turning up to work today?

Today's dream was a little disappointing because I was no longer Angie Jolie Pitt. I was me- not in the office, attending Ilya's long call. haha. So i had a good excuse to take EL!

And then of course my mom woke me up. I grabbed last week's shirt and put it on. Eww. I cant be bothered anymore. I just need to get over this week, I just want to berhari raya hari yang mulia penuh bererti kepada semua tua muda miskin dan kaya menyambutnya dengan GEMBIRAAAAAAAAAAAA!!

Oh;

Berhati-hati di jalan raya
Semoga anda selamat tiba
Ucapan selamat hari raya
dari *** untuk semuaaaaaa....

This year I bought baju rayas for myself (Lima!), made my own kuih raya (but I will buy kuihs like Mama Carrie and Sarang Semut because I dont know how to make them), pay zakat on my own (bangganya!) and will be giving out duit raya (tak mampunya!).

May God have mercy on me and shower me with duit raya this year. But I doubt it. But I shall never give up praying for it. =p. I'm sucha damsel in distress ke? Anyways..........

Pecah Kaca,
Depan Posmen,

Sudah Baca,

Harap Komen.

wonderment

2008-09-17T08:33:00.003+08:00

Doesnt it bother you, or at least make you chew over the fact that God plans to make Anwar our PM 10 years after Mahathir scheduled him to be...?

Mesti ada sebab.

mom, look what work has done to me

2008-09-13T02:28:00.021+08:00

Before we go to my Whine Kingdom, I would like to Thank God Its Friday! *dancing in my tights*

Although the date shows that it is Saturday, we are technically still on a Friday night. Do not argue with someone who just had McDonalds, because I feel good right now :)

So mom,

I was extremely tired from a whole week of in-house counsel-ing, and I was out 4 nights in a row to fulfill my social responsibility to people I call friends.

Note: I missed home like crazy and today I was so happy to be back eating my favourite kuih and my favourite ayam and home is not like those posh restaurants I go to, but home is where I belong. Posh restaurants are temporary in nature and suck the wall-E t. =p.

Note2: My friends are people I wouldnt want to exchange for diamonds. They are That valuable because I do not trust many people and so I do not have many friends. I am to a certain extent beyond sad, but seriously, I think I'm happier than most people because I surround myself with people who are real. Can we talk about my super long slumber now?

So after my buka puasa I slept for about forever-ish and that must've been 5-6 hours. And in between, I could've sworn I was exchanging smses with Aidil. And in that very cloudy state of mind I find myself appreciating him being tolerant and having an understanding that is so keen towards my dont-give-a-damness.

I Should slay myself sometimes.

Anyway, I then woke up at about 1am, went to McDonalds and now I cant sleep.

Work has made me forget my blogger password because i keep typing my webmail password instead, work has made me hate sunday nights as I will be hours away from monday but work has made me appreciate weekends and has made me miss my good ol wasted days, but work will make me rich so I will work and work will pay me so lets all work because if we dont work we will not be using our time wisely and will not be of any contribution to the country but I just wish work will not make me age so fast and instead make me look and sound smarter at least so that everyone will want to be like me especially my kids.

Speaking of kids, i wanna be a kid again, mom.

i want to just cry when something doesnt go my way or when something hurts me or when someone scolds me, I want to be able to make mistakes and not get blamed for it, i want to wake up and sleep anytime i want, i want to receive hugs and kisses from my loved ones regardless of my behaviour, i want to pee and not flush, play in the rain and get sick and have someone make hot milo for me, i want to eat as many lollies and candies without having to pay for it, and i want to have people drive me around and not drive to work all alone everyday laughing at some joke on the radio alone.

okay mom? bye mom.

the historic September 16th!

2008-09-09T14:09:00.003+08:00

I am anxiously waiting for September 16th to come :)

I suppose the day will be rather ordinary (and by ordinary I mean, it stand to reason that if you think someone is guilty before this date, u will still think he is guilty) for individuals- like you and I, but for the country and its political institution- this day will be remembered like the day Kemal Ataturk established the Republic of Turkey and liberated the country through the political, legal, cultural, social and economic reforms that were implemented to transform the Republic of Turkey into a modern, secular nation-state; or September 16th will be remembered like the time when Karl Marx said: You can buy any car of any color as long as its black.

No, Karl Marx did not say that. It was a joke widely known in those days to describe the dictatorship practiced by him. Gotcha.

Truthfully I do not know what will happen on September 16th. Rumor has it our country will have a new Prime Minister. That I'd like to see...

On a personal level, I'd say that this day will highlight that tyranny will never prevail, and that real leadership qualities defeat leaders who inherit their position from their old man. Heheh.

To September 16th! C(T)H(a)E(k)E(b)R(i)S(r)!!

chillax dinies yo daddy

2008-09-08T06:54:00.002+08:00

today's dinie's interview.

I hope he'll just calm down and know that we're all here to support him no matter what happens.

Its all gonna be good.

We all screw things up once in a while in life, and i think i just did too.

I hope you wont lose what u have, and i sure hope i wont lose what i have.

gdluck dinie. we love you!!

Post OBS

2008-09-04T13:33:00.016+08:00

As I slouch myself in my boss' semi comfortable chair and feels a sheer of awkwardness for not having lunch and is in fact at the office during lunch hour, I start missing Lumut and everything that it had taught me during the entire 17 days I surrendered my soul there. OBS in Lumut simply put, metaphorically- a fusion of perfect storms and hard earned sunshine.

I refuse to bore you with the chronology of my daily activities in OBS, although going through the expeditions and outdoor activities were so much fun! Typically for someone who has never done any outdoorsy activities before, every single experience was jakunable and to a large extent triggered excitement in my soul. There were of course moments when I felt like crying after having completed an obstacle such as the rope obstacle, rappelling and rock climbing.

I was not going to cry because I was made to do it, I wanted to cry because I begin to appreciate how valuable life is-literally.

Imagine having to slide ur feet on two cable strings and balancing ur body with a bizarre looking blue ball attached to another string above ur head. My knees were literally shaking when I started to walk on the strings. So at that spur of the moment I thought, the only way to make this realizable, was to calm down because at the speed of the vibration my knees were going, it was confirmed that I would fall flat on the ground if I did not calm myself down.

Of course calming myself down means shrieking on top of my lungs first, then baca doa 1000 kali. Of course I would portray myself as gedik when my screaming can be heard, but not my bacaan doa. =p.

Anyways, to sum up everything, I did kayak, whaler, flying fox, various suicidal rope activities, rafting, jungle trekking to hell, and solo camping. There were OBS olympics, poco-poco and aerobics session in between the never-ending expeditions.

I LOVE poco-poco.

Water activities (kayak, rafting and whaler) were my least favourite as I hate going into the water with my life jacket because even with the jacket, I still think the sea is too big and the further I go, the more I'm not on flat land and hence bigger chances for me to just drown and disappear.

I dig solo camping the most!! The afflictions I got from the ceaseless challenging activities were instantly lifted by the sound of water streaming down the humongous and whopping 100-year old rocks, the sky blued upon me, the wind touched my face and swirled around my hair, the ants visited my food and shared my only meal with me- creatures of God that I failed to pay enough attention to back in my side of town which should never be disclosed. ehe. The combination of these elements around my solo camping site gave me the sensation of peace and tranquillity so it was at that point that I reached nirvana.

Nirvana: An ideal condition of rest, harmony, stability or joy. Aummmmmm.... *meditate*

I was lucky to have gotten that spot for my solo night out. I was more fortunate as 'noone' 'visited' me that night. We were told that with the right intention, solo camping would be smoothsailing without any interruption from 'them'. I carved that saying in my heart and on my mind, and as soon as I was left alone at my spot, I said in my heart that "I am here to apply the camping skills I've learned and I am here to overcome my one and only fear that is to sleep alone. Because success to me means to be able to overcome my fear(s)."

And so I succeeded. Alhamdulillah.

Maybe God had tested me enough throughout the 17 days that He gave me the taste of nirvana at solo camping. I will always remember that feeling, and will live my life trying to attain that feeling again as often as I can.

OBS forces its participants to reflect on him/herself. I did just that and found that the self-discovery I made 3 years ago matches my discovery today. I knew exactly who I am and it was that that made me survived the rest of them who were battling to discover themselves.

I am grateful for the opportunity to be sent to Lumut because I have begin to learn the importance of being able to handle my emotions and self-control during the mother of all stressful conditions.

It wan in OBS that I learn the real meaning of friendship.

And that a real leader is one who can lead him/herself and is not afraid to be the only one with the unpopular opinion and strongly defend that opinion even if it means having to go against everyone.

HOCHUWEI!!!!!!!

the before entry

2008-08-07T00:12:00.003+08:00

Judging by my shortstuff physique, you can easily tell that I have lived my life based on mental strength and mental strength only.

And of course, unlimited personal standings, principles and philosophies have contributed a lot to this thing I call mental strength.

Hence this before entry is dedicated to myself, and to several people that matters to me, for the simple reason: to compare how right or wrong I am about OBS before and after OBS.

OBS: Outward Bound School, in Lumut, which I will surrender myself to for the next 3 weeks. So God Help me.

I am aware of the fact that I cannot do a lot of things especially anything physically challenging. Thus to make up to these weaknesses I do rubiks and I use bombastic words to scare the hell out of my opponents. [everyone is an opponent when u consider ur life a game. heheh]

So to myself;
Build up that mental strength, for you can do even the hardest thing in life if your mind is up for it. Should you lose your grip on anything in the big bad cruel jungle, close your eyes and hold on to your God, your loved ones and heck the nearest branches available.

When you fall into the water and feel helpless, think: i'm a mermaid. and swim, dammit.

When you're all alone and you feel scared, know that everyone else is going through the same thing and if you give up, you are not a winner in this game. =p.

Last but not least, do some soul searching while you're in the jungle, cos its about time...

Till we meet again, dont miss me too much! =D

rudeatude!

2008-08-05T11:38:00.003+08:00

I often do one thing, and regret it almost instantly just to find a few days later, the silver lining starts to appear and demands me to acknowledge the fact that God Knows whats best for me.

Last Friday, at the Transmission briefing [i am in the electricity business now, bear with my electrified terms], i was the first to rush to the penthouse pantry for my morning tea break. As I championed the who-gets-the-roti-jala-first battle, I got a special invitation from the VIP to sit at his table. I quickly pulled two other girls to join me.

Sitting at the VIP's table was just plain dreadful. The roti jala was crazy delicious, but there was no way I could have roti jala tambah. D'oh!

But for every roti jala i lost, there were useful lessons given to us by the VIP. As someone who has grown successfully in his career, he told us that the most important thing for our survival in the workplace is to gain people's respect and trust.

And by gaining people's respect, he meant for us to initially respect other people first.

Okay, thank you... [there goes my kuih seri muka as the next briefing was about to start...]

While i was busy having regrets and pledging to myself never to rush into the pantry again, I encountered a classic example of a rudeatude person while watching SATC [for the 2nd time and is just annoyed when someone laughs out loud at the jokes to announce to people that i-so-get-this-joke, just like when I watched The Simpsons].

Truth be told, many Malaysians got CARRIEd away by the fact that this was an american series that they Must know and Must make known to people that they know, you know?

So back to this rudeatude bic whose cellphone did not ring or vibrate even once in that 3 hours and got so annoyed when mine did. Excuse me, some of us are Really Carrie Bradshaws and we do have boyfriends.

So she rudely interrupted the non-interrupting silent me by saying: Can you please just forget about your handphone???

This is a bic who does not deserve anyone's respect, because she does not respect others.

Silver lines outline a lot of things that is happening in my life now and I am blessed to have encountered many rudities as I begin to elevate to a whole other level from these experiences.

KJ tenkiuuuuu..... =p

pout master

2008-06-18T08:21:00.003+08:00

[I interrupt this blog with my blogarrhea]

Notice how guys swarm over freebies like bees groupie and Queen bee in migration to establish a new colony?

I'm no different.

I jumped to the idea of going on a free trip to Cameron Highlands last saturday and instantly became a pout master.

We have all seen pouts being the abercrombie of our faces in friendster and facebook. Some of us are even labelled as the pout slut due to too much pouts being displayed in our profile. You may want to stop the brutality on yourself and others. LOL. [i'm quite the facebooker these days].

Fortunately, I know my pouts are fugly, so you wont see pouts in any of my uploaded photos for the simple reason, they are not uploadable.

However, there is one exception to most limitations i set to myself. When i see yellow listed kids, I pout. Kids [or adults] who do not wash their hands after urinating is in my yellow list. Noted?

To my surprise, most of these generation Z kids have not discovered the pouting power in them! So thanks to me, they are now pouting their way to success!

Bla bloo Bla bloo, Bla haba bubu naa!

what the h- is congenital?

2008-06-12T17:24:00.005+08:00

Exactly, right..? Nobody in the legal world can answer this one. Being the scare-anoid person that i am, even the idea of going to a medical check up had already scared the bejesus outta me.

So anyway, all went well except for my X-ray test. The result came out printed in Courier New font:

CHEST ( PA ) :

The heart size is normal.

No focal parenchymal lung lesion.

No hilar or mediastinal lymphadenopathy.

There is fusion of the right 2nd and 3rd ribs, likely congenital.

Freak-a-doodle out I became when i saw the last sentence, picked up the phone and rang my dad.

I read out the words in the last sentence loudly and s l o w l y so he could make out what I was trying to say.

Then i found out congenital means my 2nd and 3rd ribs were joined since birth. What????

What, am I like abnormal or something?? Hey who crushed my soft shell crab like ribs until it fused together 24 years ago??

I am going to take care of my ribs very carefully from now on. Nobody come near me, ya hear?? Nobody!

All SHIrTy Again!!!

2008-06-06T19:49:00.004+08:00

Work is coming to get me on June 23rd!!!! I cant wait to get all shirty again!!!! hahahahahahaha *trembles but trying to hide it*

I need a lot of clothes to make me happy and motivated to go to work. Oh and make up too. And a NoNo-Nonsense looking bag.

I pray hard that my blurness will decrease and please please release me from the chandler syndrome i.e. making stupid jokes in front of strangers when i'm nervous.

If there is one advice i can give myself right now, it would be the exact same advice I gave to myself a couple of years ago before I decided to enter into a relationship.

Just have FUN!

Enjoy the damn ride and do not turn back. Should there be any bumps in my way, I must slow down and brake so that it wont hit me too hard on the tushie.

Dood.. Chillax!

2008-05-29T20:58:00.004+08:00

I am obsessed with the word chillax [chill + relax] so feel free to use it because i'm contagious, i know.

I am stressing on the word chillax, because believe you me, if you can master the art of chillaxing, it will add value to your personality and attractiveness.

Now i am not just an ordinary dr. love. But i have not been paid accordingly, so I keep a low profile, because hey, my expertise should not be free. but its okay, today, i'm going to demonstrate yet another extraordinary series of advise for young people who cannot chillax in the course of enjoying their youths, in hope for someone to recognize my talent and make me BIG like my guru, John Gray.

Chillax formula #1
the spider web anology: observe the spider when it constructs its web. the more time the spider spends on constructing the web, the better the quality of the construction is. correct?

when the web is done, the spider chillaxes at the corner of the somewhat invisible web it had constructed, until its victim is trapped in the web.

so chillaxing is a reward by itself, after u've done a hard work that you dont even need to make known to people. it is easier to succeed, when u chillax and keep a low profile because then not many people will get in your way.

I'm sorry, because i'm not getting paid for this, I will stop here, although I have a gazillion more chillax formulas.

Remember, we all can be as desirable as the forbidden apple in the garden of eden if we just CHILLAX!

motivation #1

2008-05-07T16:40:00.004+08:00

The silentness of this chambering room is eerie. I realized they need my noise pollution more than anything now. Unfortunately, I will be gone, forever.

I do not appreciate this silence as I am freaking out like crazy before I enter my Master's room. This is the woman who will make me feel very very small everytime I see her. This is the woman who almost made me a quitter. This is the woman who demotivated me for the past 9 months.

I was literally dehydrated before I came to this place. The thought of meeting this woman has made me restless and suicidal.

I CANNOT FEAR ANYONE OTHER THAN MY CREATOR.

I CANNOT FEAR ANYONE OTHER THAN MY CREATOR.

born, finally!

2008-05-02T00:33:00.006+08:00

9 months of pupilage can be simply illustrated with the concept of pregnancy.

You get stirred by the thought of being pregnant, and then when ur actually going through the morning sicknesses, the storm which brings about hurricane to ur hormones and directly affect ur mood and the physical change to ur belly, u cant help but start to regret: why oh why did I get myself into this snafu.

U then get through the days with the support of ur loved ones, reminding urself every single second of the day that once this baby is born, it'll all be worth it, u'll be the happiest person in this world, and while waiting for that magical day to come, ur imagination lingers around what that day would be like, how the baby would look like, and worry to a certain degree as to whether or not u will survive.

Once the baby is born, everything seems so perfect, everyone seems to be delighted, proud, happy, and u have just achieved one of the proudest and biggest moment of ur life. But seconds or hours before that baby was born, was the most crucial time for u. All the 'pushing' effort seemed endless and u could have sworn that ur life will end any moment at that time.

I have never been pregnant or gave birth to anyone, but i have now the scars with that baby in my hands.

To my fellow chambees, we did it!

Relax lah, kak.

2008-04-25T17:36:00.005+08:00

Watching other people get old is a funbrain activity for a young one like me. heheh. But it also mean the young one has to get out and get the old one a present.

I enjoy looking out for presents for my friends; i cant really explain the jollity and the rush i get from doing it. If I have infinity dollars, i would like to do this exuberant activity every single day for the rest of my life.

Which got me thinking: I think I just invented a job. I could advertise myself as the "Present Finder" where I provide service of finding the perfect gift for the individualistic city people who just do not have time to get out and get presents for their loved ones. All they need is to email me and provide me with a budget and maybe a brief description of the recipient. And then upon delivery of the present, they pay me some amount of service charge. When I am established, I will set up a website and my clients can simply order thru the net and make payment thru e-banking(?).

Note to self: learn about e-payment and e-present business.

Now that I've got you in my imagination, lets flashback to what happened earlier today. Bangang punya kakak Jusco.

That's the introduction, here's the body. As soon as I purchased a ******* for my friend, I wanted to go get a box to scrunch the present in. So I went to Jusco, where the customer service counter is placed, to get myself one of those fancy boxes.

My gift is jumbo in size, elephantine kind of gift you see. So i wanted to grab the largest box which was placed at the bottom of a shelf that is out of my reach. On top of that box were two smaller similar looking boxes.

Being the ordinary klutzy me, I reached for the jumbo box which had the two boxes on top of it fell on the kakak jusco who was standing on the other side of the counter. I said sorry so many times, and although I tried extremely hard to conceal my laugh, i could not. Okay sorry. (see, i said sorry again).

SHE STUNG ME WITH THE MOST VENOMOUS LOOK, and I felt myself shrinking into an ant.

The rest of the customers stared at me, with the same look of hatred, or at least that was what i imagined.

I walked away, feeling very ashamed, and tearful, headed straight to the 5 ringgit shop and settled for a paper bag to chunk my gift in.

HuwaaaaaAAAaaaAAAAAAAA~~~!!!

Addictive!!!

2008-04-21T21:43:00.002+08:00

I used to LOVE composing essays

2008-04-17T08:08:00.003+08:00

As far as the language of body is concern, when you wake up in the morning and the first thing you do is drag yourself up half-way, and then slams it rrrright back to bed, you are hating your job.

In my very pessimistic head, jobs are in the draconian thought section.

I am at this stage where I attend job interviews looking like the part, but truthfully, feeling a lot like a zombie in disguise. I am just going for the sake of keeping my promises to HR Managers and pleasing myself when i hear (legal) jargons after jargons being thrown outta my mouth.

I am going to feel like a total idiot when i read this entry again in 5 years time.

As you are reading this, I am probably half way completing an essay about myself. Well, in Mr. Adrian's words: your personality, strengths and weaknesses.

Why am i dreading this...? In school, essay composition was the only reason I stayed alive, because obviously add maths was fatal. Simply put, if you were to compile my essays, it'd sell better than Khairuddin Ayip's 100 Karangan Contoh untuk UPSR/PMR/SPM.

If Mr. Adrian wants to know about my personality, strengths and weaknesses; allow me to define myself.

Personality: I talk fast.

Strength: I learn faster.

Weakness: I judge people fastest.

If i was not afraid of people associating me with bimbos, I really would like to learn how to make hair and make up as i enjoy making others look pretty. Unfortunately, that will also mean I'd murder all transexual and bapuk clients who walk into my saloon.

My Sister's Wedding

2008-03-29T00:28:00.002+08:00

With Ilya being married to the man she bagged 6years ago, the spotlight is inevitably on this lil sister. I dont need extra attention, but the spotlight simply means I get to philosphize more, and i enjoy making others look shallow.

Philosophy #1
Ilya is married because she's 27.
A lot of 27 year old women would consider themselves very unsuccessful if they do not already have a person to call 'hubby' by the age of 27. As much as I think the word hubby is disgusting, the idea of having a hubby is quite alright as long as u dont call him hubby. Generation Y (that's babies born from 1980 to 1995) however, no longer care so much about the age factor, but rather bagging the right guy. because believe me, u dont want to spend 3 years dating someone else's husband and find out about his status from his 20 year old son.

Philosophy #2
Ilya is married because she has been with her boyfriend for 6 years.
Thats forever! If a guy doesnt propose you by that time, leave him. It is however not as easy as that. When u have been with a guy for 6 years, it is very hard to leave him because by that time u are gam gajahly attached to him (and possibly his family). Besides, starting all over again seems like an endless process. But believe me, u dont want to have to change religion so soon out of a promise to marry, to find that 6 years later, with 2 illegitimate kids, the guy Still doesnt want to marry you. So be very careful if you're approaching ur 6th year of relationship. If there are no indications, leave.

Philosophy #3
Ilya has only been married for a week, gimme a break.
I'm not against the idea, but please, gimme a frikin break, the bunga manggars are still standing on my front gate for goodness sake. haha.

Philosophy #4
Most of my friends cant afford to give me my dream wedding presents yet. hahahahahaha. Okay2, main2 main2..

Apart from me being pissed off for just about everything related to work at the moment, I am thrilled and very very happy for my sister Ilya, for having elevated to the status of wife and I assure you my mom is the happiest person on earth right now. Thank God for your marriage Ilya, i can do whatever the annoying hell i like and not get scolded by mama, but i give her 1 month before being naggy waggy again.

I advise my friends to stop asking me out and start hunting for man because as much as hanging out with a marriage philospher like me is fun, hearing what u want to hear (that it is okay to be single at the age of 24) is bad for your health. =p.

Just Visiting

2008-03-01T11:10:00.004+08:00

I'm a board game enthusiast, Mr. Monopoly will not beg to differ. In today's graceful development of computer games, i do at times play monopoly in the computer and that, my friend, was my numero uno substitute to reading statutes and reported cases in law school.

A lot of people can relate to my board game fetishism, i'm sure. [board games include: monopoly, scrabble, portable scrabble, chess, rubik's cube. hehe]

Monopoly rocks, as long as you dont roll doubles 3 times in a row and be sent to jail. If you have a get-out-of-jail card, then u'd be secretly wishing that you do end up in jail to stylishly irk the heck outta the other players. and by stylish i mean, to hold the jail card in between your index and middle finger [as if holding a cigarette] and handing it over to the banker with a tiny smirk on ur face. TOLDJA I'M A BOARD GAME ENTHUSIAST.

And then there's the "just visiting" moments where you miss a turn to frikin visit the jail, and That has caused you to once again miss passing through Park Place and Boardwalk that you are dying to get hold of and build houses and hotels on! GRRRR.

WHY DO PEOPLE VISIT THE JAIL ANYWAY??

I dont ask myself that question anymore. I now have answers to that question.

Having had the opportunity to visit the Sg. Buloh and Kajang prison and to interview the detainees therein for my legal aid training, I often get these questions addressed to me:

1. How can you talk to them without feeling any disgust towards them?
2. How do you manage to keep a straight face when faced with criminals of rape & buggery with animal?
3. Why do you want to meet and talk to them?

As legal practitioners, we often forget the cardinal rule applicable to these criminals. Everyone is presumed innocent until proven guilty.

The detainess I met, be it for robbery, rape, possessing dangerous weapons, drug traffiking or prostitution, are people who have not even been tried by the courts and far from being pronounce as guilty of the offence.

Thus, the presumption that they're innocent apply.

That is how I manage to keep a straight face and not feel disgusted when I talk to them. Besides, when they talk to me, they were in their most vulnerable position, with hands cuffed and with the most inferior feeling towards free people such as you and i.

I am their last hope when no one else would even look at them in the eyes, what more to listen to their stories. Yes, they have admitted to me that they committed the crimes they are charged for, but it will not hurt to listen to their stories, lend an ear and look at them like they should be looked at- a human being.

I'm not on their side, but I do not want to punish someone before they get their official punishment from the judges (or from a lawyer who drafts the judge's judgment, boo you).

I'm begging you to consider the maxim innocent until proven guilty. If you want to say someone is guilty, you must bring forward facts and evidences that will strengthen your allegations.

Otherwise, we will be guilty of depriving their liberty.

And that is a crime against human rights.

So if you put someone who is innocent in jail, you are no different from them, a criminal who commits a crime against human rights.

So just because you're on the other side of the fence, dont you for one second think you have never committed a crime.

It is ironic for someone who initiated the building of Sg. Buloh prison to end up serving his sentence in that prison.

With no proof and jumbled up contradicting facts, he was nevertheless forced to pay for what he did not commit.

So before you even begin to judge these prisoners, consider the real criminals who are still on the loose.

And then VOTE accordingly. Heheh.

My Chinese New Year

2008-02-07T20:31:00.001+08:00

"And verily, there were man among mankind who took shelter with the males among the jinn, but they (jinn) increased them (mankind) in sin and transgression." [72:6]

Sometimes when u go shopping, u carry with u more than shopping goodie bags home. My shopping experiences are always personally satisfying when I incur knowledge and have realization burdened onto my cerebrum.

This morning, I met a miraculously special man who has been damned by God. At least up till noon today. If he goes home and repent, then I take back my words, he is no longer the damnedest person on earth.

This man claimed he could turn strips of newspaper thrown into a portable wood drawer into cash. The catch is, u may not spend the cash, it has to be an "ibu duit". Should u spend the cash, the second u hand the cash to the recipient, the said cash will disappear. [ibu duit: a note or coin believably having the ability to suck in more cash into ur wallet. The Chinese believe that if u change handbags, never leave the previous bag empty, leave some coins or cash in it, to ensure the smoothness of the flow of ur income.]

Gong Xi Fa Cai, people. Another way to ensure smoothie flowy income, is to hand me those red packets, Thank You.

So the minute I heard the 'condition' i knew this man is indulging himself in the jinn business. An idiot could've figured it out as he kept summoning his 'Ya Rijal Ghaib' (Oh man who is invisible).

The idea is to give each audience the cash and they are to put it in a sack together with 3 rice grains. I know what you're thinking right now. A load of Bull. Exactly. Stay with me, please.

Of course there were other things, such as the 'batu cempaka something' which gives u the immunity from getting slashed by sharp objects. Also, wearing that batu will make the person who shakes hand with u like u instantly [recommended for people who plans to go to interviews and meeting new, potential boss.] The catch: One ringgit note, which u cannot spend, but Must be paid to a blind needy person.

For a moment, I expected the audience to share my disgust towards this man and my faith for the religion. To my surprise, when offered "Siapa nak batu ni?", more than 20 hands reached for the sky!

I walked away at this junction with disappointment travelling in my veins. Did I just witness more than 20 hands of Muslims wanting to participate in this damned absurdity?

"If you join others in worship with Allah, (then) surely, (all) your deeds will be in vain, and you will certainly be among the losers." [39:65]

It is not the genie in the drawer or the green stone that holds our fate. Allah is the One Whose help we seek.

I do want short cuts in red packages. I do not want short cuts that makes me commit actions of shirk.

kelly cabby

2008-02-03T08:56:00.000+08:00

The absurd words of one man which I will always consider to be a motivation to Know that there is someone out there who can never be half the person that i am: "Desperate times do not always need desperate measures."

The ironic thing is, that statement he made, does not really reflect his daily actions. This is the man who is so desperate at all times, that he still climbed up a broken ladder after falling down twice, told a friend a lie to gain his bosses' attention and drained out his parents' cash to purchase a mansion.

Desperate times, DO need desperate measures, why cant u just agree with that? If u choose to be different, being gay is not the solution.

ANYWAYS. Here's a story about My desperate time.

Thinking that I was going to be late for my interview, I agreed to pay the cabby RM30 to get my suited lawyer a** to Nikko Hotel. I only agreed because I believed, in good faith, that the road was going to be congested.

It was a public holiday, and there was not one single car ahead of the cab to block it from speeding like a keling mabuk.

Got there in 15 frikin minutes! And had to pay RM30.

I stared at cabby's face as i handed him the RM50 note. He didnt dare to look into my eyes. He gave me my change and said thank you. The stumble in his voice comforted me, as there was a sense of guilt in the tone of his voice. At least he now realize what an arse he had been.

A lot of times, we are not the stupid ones although we are the victims. There are just people in this world who do not deserve our respect. I was a better person when I got out of that cab, knowing that if I had argued with the mabuk taxi driver, I would be breaching the verbal contract we made earlier. Contradicting my own words, would only make me a lawyer who will have a video featured in Youtube 15 years from now.

After all, kelly cabby probably needed the money more than I do. I know that because I am positive he will not be getting himself 1 million dollars from the Queen.

My rubik's cube

2008-01-25T09:13:00.000+08:00

I am obsessed with rubik's cube, this is not new. I think about rubik's cube allllll the time, I stalk it, I go to Toys R Us just to stare at it, I google rubik's, I fantasize about rubik's, my frikin imaginary friend: is a dancing rubik's cube. =)

My obsession has led me to one thing, and one thing only: to make my own rubik's cube. And it is not just any ordinary rubik's cube, My cube will become every rubik's obsessor in this world wish they can have it, and they will have it by hook or by crook because it will become a collector's item, a special edition, the most expensive rubik's cube ever invented, ladies and gentlemen!

HAHAhahahahahahahahahahahahaHAHAHAHAHAHAhahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!

So here's My rubik's cube plan revealed to the world for the very first time.

My rubik's cube is made out of real stones and not cheap colored stickers on a plastic cube.

Yellow: Gold

Green: Emerald

White: Diamond

Blue: Sapphire

Red: Ruby

Orange: Topaz

I first need to get a million dollars to make one sample of My rubik's cube before showing it off to the world.

Aidil, HELP.

2 zero zero 8

2008-01-02T12:58:00.000+08:00

Goodnight 2007.

I spent my last few hours of 2007 at Malaysia's eye, One Utama, Central park and The Curve. I was at "home" the whole time, basically.

But somehow or rather, It didnt feel like home that night.

There were a herd of calsbergers, tigerers and cheap beerers around, flocks of wild party explorers, gangs of wet snow sprayed teenagers and lets categorize myself into the pack of fireworks lovers.

Turning my head around, I could only see a vista of nothing but people forming an ocean of heads. Some covered heads were unfortunately in the front mosh pit, banging, jumping and dancing to the good loud music. This I would describe as a club so pack that it leaked.

Except, when you go to a club, you wont really get to see covered heads behaving as such. So just because it was done in the open and on the street, suddenly it is okay for them to act like clubbers?

Definitely an experience which made me appreciated Only the fireworks.

I thank the last minutes of the 2007 party for making me realize how much I've grown in the last 5 years.

Good Morning 2008.

You started our new year by pouring drops of rain on us. Were you crying of joy or were you mourning?

what's another word for soulmate?

2007-12-27T21:53:00.000+08:00

It is about time people know that i have been sulking about this whole nobody ever invites me to their weddings! Who do you frikin think you are? who do i frikin think I am? I am someone who appreciates invitations and will make rsvps when told to do so and will cancel my rsvp at the last minute.

okay, maybe that is why people dont invite me.

But people must know that today, as I was having my maghrib slumber (tak elok tido time maghrib), I got a message from a dear friend telling me she has found her soulmate.

At least someone acknowledges my interest. huh.

But then again, could you really meet your soulmate in a week?

Greek mythology has tried explaining how this whole soulmate came about. I disagree with it and as usual have my own theory, which I will now impose on you.

Soulmate is someone who makes drops of saliva waterfalls down your mouth.

And of course I have extended versions of every general principle i create. Soulmates are people who can bring you taffy apples.

d
r
o
p
s of saliva waterfalling down my mouth. =p.

So another word for soulmate is taffy apple.

This entry is dedicated to taffy apples all around the world. i want you, i need you, oh baby, oh baby.

My 23rd year

2007-12-17T00:20:00.000+08:00

Another birthday has passed, I am proud to say that I am now 23 years old. Although to some people I may be 51, but no matter... I'm always 6 at heart. =)

Those who grew up with me would probably have heard about my dreams and fantasies of how i'd like to turn out when i'm 23. Now that i'm Actually tuwenti teree, I'm not even close to what I thought I'd be.

I always thought I'd be a married kick-ass lawyer by the age of 23.

I'm not married.

I'm not a lawyer.

I kick nobody's ass.

I am happy nonetheless, because I just watched Enchanted, and maaaaannnn, robert's life as a lawyer suck big time. How can he advise his clients to get a divorce? If I were to be a family law lawyer, I'd draft an agreement that states the following:

If you (husband) ever decide to leave me, I am coming with you.
You (husband) may fall in love a gazillion times, but only with one person i.e. Me.
Marriage is an assignment for courageous people. Cowards back off.
If you (husband) plan to live a 100 years, I want to live one day shorter than that period, so that I never have to live without you (husband).
It has to be clearly understood that you (husband) and i (wife) are forever on the same side.
You (husband) may service your car at any time, and if necessary your romantic side too.
You (husband) are the president of my fan club.
Be just to yourself, if you (husband) do not love me, do not sign this contract.

Hmmmmm. Now I sound like a kick-ass lawyer.

HAPPY 23RD BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Jejak Kasih

2007-11-27T14:36:00.000+08:00

Who'd have known, that I will one day become the subject of a situation often referred to as jejak kasih.

After court today, I made a lunch appointment with my dad. The most awaited event of every other day that I get to have lunch with him simply because I love the company of a quiet man.

What are the odds I can have a company parallel to that at work? ZERO. I hate lawyers' gabbiness. They are just mere unstimulating series of repeated facts. I repeat: repeated facts.

Anyhooooooo.

My dad was at my old tuition centre- The cekal tuition centre, registering my brothers for The revision course that i used to rock back when I was 15 and 17.

So I went to meet my dad there and paid a visit to my Mrs. Amarjit and Ms. (Now Mrs.) Monny!

The minute Mrs Amarjit saw me, she got up from her chair, and ran, yes ran to hug meeeee! AAAaaaaa!!! So so sweeeeet my teacher!! I was so happy FULL STOP.

Then I met Mrs. Monny who said I'm still as small as ever and they were both just so proud of the fact that I'm now a well, gabby lawyer. =p.

Then I was brought to the notice board where they showed me the Thank You card I gave them 8 years ago. I was so terharu......... *sob* *sob*

Then we remembered my dad was there and started controlling ourselves. =p.

The best part was: we were acting like screaming bimbo girls that the entire form 3 class who had witnessed the whole incident clapped their hands! hahaha.

HaaaaaaaaaaaaH. Lunch-ing with Ayah is always so rewarding.

For teaching me so much, I owe them a legal advice:

DONT RAISE YOUR KIDS TO BE A LAWYER.

one hand down the pants

2007-11-15T16:26:00.000+08:00

No, its not what you think.

The title of the entry is to be read literally though. This chronicle is intended to gag you, not sicken you.

As many of you do not know (and I am actually not here to tell), my house is being renovated. Thus, the temporary dwellers of my garden are the Indonesian workers.

This morning, as i was ironing my pants in my parents' bedroom, which by the way gives me a perfect view of the Indonesian workers (I stress, that is not the reason Why I do my ironing there), I saw one of them SUDDENLY-

Took off his belt;
Unzipped his pants;
Inserted one hand down his pants; and

took out some cash from his underwear.

I then peeped some more to see what he was doing with the money. Rupanya, he was paying the ice-cream man who had parked his motorcycle in my house.

Oh my God ke tak Oh my God tu...???

Although I stopped being judgmental the minute I saw the ice-cream man, I just cant help thinking WHAT ON EARTH WOULD THAT ICE-CREAM MAN THINK OF HIM??

I wanna say I think it is kinda cute that there are still people who keep their cash in their undies, but that'd just make people think I'm quite d.o.t.t.y.

But i can easily say: You wish my story's about something else, don't you..........? =p.

Lemonade is not Coke

2007-11-12T10:00:00.000+08:00

When it comes to things that are edible, it is kind of a big deal to me. My tongue chatters perpetually, and as such, it only deserves the best food and drinks (and man) in town.

Meet my bad hat tongue, ladies and gentlemen.

I was having a lovely birthday dinner in the absence of the birthday girl last saturday night; and by lovely i mean nasi briyani kambing with scrumptious ayam goreng berempah and this vegetably dish, with my friends and a couple of persona non gratas who later became part of 'the group' because well, they had good effort. It is not always easy, to penetrate into the Mosantos' colloquies Eheh eheh... *pats self on the back*

By good effort, i mean quite smooth. That was probably the 1st time I did not label a stranger as poyo. =p.

Stranger: I'm going to get a drink. Would you girls like anything to drink? coke?

Me: Yes, coke.

Stranger later comes back with 2 glasses of lemonade.

Stranger: I heard people saying the lemonade tastes good. So I took lemonade. Would u like to try it?

Me: No! I want Coke! [i didnt mean to be rude, i was just really really blur].

Stranger: Coke tinggal sikit.

Me: But i asked for Coke. Not lemonade.

At this super blur remark, my friends came to my rescue.

Friends: It's okay, we'll have the lemonade.

Stranger: So u still want the Coke?

Me: Yes.

3 minutes later, stranger came back with a glass of Coke.

My friends stared at me, and started making mean coke jokes. By this time, stranger had warmed up to all my friends and started calling me authoritative.

Truth be told, I honestly did not hear Stranger's suggestion to Try the lemonade. I thought Stranger made a mistake and wanted to correct him.

Friend: Moon, u didnt even say sorry...

Me: I said Thanks...

Meet my bad hat tongue, ladies and gentlemen.

Primary School Musical 1

2007-10-30T20:13:00.000+08:00

I gave up the 14th law conference today and its utmost tasteful food for my all time favourite Sekolah Sri Petaling.

As I waited for Ryzal in the car, i heard Sean Kingston's "beautiful girls" in the air. Accompanying that loud music, were voices of children singing along to:

"Damn all these beautiful girls

They only wanna do you dirt

They'll have you suicidal, suicidal

When they say its over"

Okay, first of all, kids should Not say Damn. They cannot know what suicidal means. And they should not be taught that there are such things as beautiful girls and not so beautiful girls, i.e to be judging girls physically.

But then maybe, just positively thinking...they can improve their memorizing skills that way.

So if songs can Really perk up a kid's mind, which i do believe it would, what happened to those songs like:

"Ada seorang kawan

Namanya Ah Meng

Dia juga berkawan

Namanya Muthu

Kami berkawan baik

sama sedarjah

belajar bersama

main bersama..."

or...

"Merah, putih, kuning dan biru

warna bunga di halamanku

segar, mekar sepanjang hari

bau sungguh harum

memikat hati..."

I used to LOVE music classes back in school and i thought the black recorder was way cooler than the white ones. Today, both black & white are my favourite colours. hehe.

So as much as I would love to know that my brother is being taught to sing and is being exposed to really recent songs, I still think that teachers should stick to the syllibus. Regardless of whether these kids were the ones who probably requested for the Sean Kingston song.

And just a couple of days ago, my brother asked me what F*** means.

And i replied, "i didnt know what it means when i was ur age, u shouldnt too."

Not a very motherly answer. But, good enough to shut him up.

And then today, came another question: What is the difference between S*** and Shiznit?

I honestly dont know.

Now i live in fear thinking what other words he might learn from school. I fear having my own kid for that matter.

So I'm gonna stick to my original plan then. To have a robot maid so that it will not seduce my husband.

I am so screwed. DAMN.

shoes off, please.

2007-10-18T20:43:00.000+08:00

Not only dont I have luck with toilets, I also create tragedies at the mosque.

Prior to the joyous hari raya celebration, I travelled 10 hours to Kelantan, and so, public toilets and mosques were too often visited by me.

Different mosques have different beautiful architectural designs, which can easily confuse my mind.

At which point should i take off my shoes, when there are millions of stairs heading to the prayer section? At what point should i start to think rationally when I cannot hold it in any longer?

So came into the mosque i did, with my shoes on. Be reminded that I was walking along the corridor when a guy shouted "Bukak kasut! Ini masjid!"

I felt so embarrassed and wanted to cry, but i wanted to pee more. So i decided to hold my tears back and not hold my bladder activity any longer.

* * * * * * *

On my way back to KL, I made a stop at another mosque. This time, i got it all right. I even placed my shoe on the shoe rack. Hehe.

In the toilet, I bumped into 3 young ladies with their shoes on. When they saw me bare footed, they quickly ran out to take off their shoes.

While other people looked at them in disgust, I smiled at them.

It is easy for others to be mad at ignorant people like us, because they dont have flaws that are visible to the naked eye.

But that doesnt mean they are flawless, right?

Walk For Justice

2007-09-27T13:24:00.000+08:00

"When lawyers walk, something is wrong... Lawyers dont walk everyday, not even every month, but when they walk, then something must be very wrong. " -Ambiga Sreenevasan.

Indeed, Ambiga, indeed.

For lawyers do not walk, be it in heels or boots or flats or flip-flops unless and until a circumstance demands us to do so.

Which made me realize how terribly lucky i was to be part of the walk for justice from the beginning til the end; which made me feel sorry for those who came but never got to finish the whole journey due to a lil drizzle; which made me regret not recruiting more people to come to the historic event with me for the unutterable, priceless and simply out of this world experience.

I was reborn on September 26th 2007.

And here's my response to e-mails i have received, which in my opinion intended to harm me personally:

I was there because i do believe that changes need to be done. Pursuant to the publication of the video on YouTube, if we were to sit around in our offices, and continue to work for a corrupted legal system, that'll just be absurd. At least when we go out there and voice out our dissatisfaction(s), That by itself is already a step towards achieving justice. It is completely wrong to say we did not achieve anything or that the walk was not worth it.

But if one really does think its "stupid" or being unprofessional or not civilised, tell that to the other 1000++ experienced senior lawyers who were there standing in the rain, to fight for justice. Who are we, as chambering students with hardly any experience in this line, and had just started doing pupilage to say that it was "stupid" and not worth it.

Btw, how hard is it to tell that the video we saw on YouTube is a genuine one? Who would want to superimpose VK Lingam? Do we really need the royal commission to tell us that IT IS GENUINE? We are not that stupid, are we? I believe that to be a good legal practitioner, common sense is more important than anything else.

Everyone is entitled to his or her opinion. I just gave mine. Fair and square.

Ps: The "broohaha" could've been worth it if one came, saw and conquered. Not came, saw, and ran (when the rain started coming down).

Regards,
Muna.

And to my surprise, i received NO reply. So much for the previous 5 emails on "Why walk.."

The one with the graduation

2007-09-23T11:56:00.000+08:00

Its been a month since I graduated. 2 months since I've chambered. And no sign of me growing up yet. I am becoming skeletony and lighter by the day. Mute too. The amount of work pending has grown and I recently realized that I am in no one's wedding invitation list. I should start preparing My wedding invitation list and remember to slash them out. But sudden realization also tells me that i should have been more aware of my friends back then rather than sticking to my 'click' only. Right now, I am informed of their engagements and weddings by 'click'ing on the little thumbnail pictures they upload on friendster...

...Or facebook [I dont get facebook and will not waste my time checking it. So if anyone has been licking or spanking or taking money away from me, you are playing with yourself. Eww...]

You seek my graphical elaboration on the following issues:

GRADUATION PRESENTS! =D

Beautiful roses from Aidil! i love it sooo much! Thank you Aidil!!!! Keep the flowers coming!!! =p. xoxo.

Blooming sunflowers from my sunshines aka Aienn and Ainsafian. What great taste you girls have! thanks! =D .

Red rose given by my family. Actually the bouquet dah tercampur dengan Aidil's bouquet. So i cant remember what else is there besides the red rose. hehe. Isnt it pretty?? the redness of the rose? =).

Graduation teddy on a stick from sakina and hanis. Its so so cute. Thank you for acknowledging my request to have a teddy bear for my graduation, although the size has been reduced. =p. Btw, the teddy's name is Iqbal. hahahaha.

Limited Edition "Absolutely Givenchy" perfume given by my parents. They bought this somewhere in US i guess. I love the smell! Its so sweet and if i were to be a perfume i'd smell exactly like this! Thank you Ayah & Mama!
GRADUATION PICTURES WITH LOVED ONES!

My beloved and incomplete family. My parents were in the US and thus explains the absence. Dinie has returned to UK and Zul was in college, and Afiq kene tinggal kat rumah by Hilmi. So as you can see, only Ilya, Hilmi, Kak Eton and Ryzal were present. I hope Ilya is motivated to graduate after having to witness me on stage taking the scroll and almost tripped. I thank my family for being there with me because I have to admit I was not really looking forward to attend the graduation ceremony when i first found out my parents couldnt make it. I still have regrets and wonders what it would've been like if my parents were there. But its okay, because i feel their love all the way from abroad when i received the graduation present from them. hehe. This is my gift to them in return for their continuous love and support to me, and for working so hard to provide us with luxuries. To my cousin and siblings, thanks for allocating some time to attend my graduation. i love you guys!!! =)

Aidil allllways has this pose. The one with the hands covering the front. Whaaatever makes him happy. =p. His white shirt is oh-so-perfectly-gorgeous, but the camera kinda should be concealed a lil bit. But i thank the camera, for if it isnt strapped there across his chest, we wont be able to capture any of my happy graduation moments. hehe. For those who have been ignorant or in denial (haha), aidil is my boyfriend and ryzal's bestfriend. maybe i dont say this enough but i really appreciate him because he is the reason i glow these days. *Pshiiiinnggg*=D. Oh, and thanks for dropping by my place after the graduation to listen to my craps. haha.

Hanis & Sakina, my bestest highschool friends! =D. Hanis, the doctor-to-be and sakina the business woman-to-be were so sweet to come all the way from damansara to be with me and celebrate my big day. I cant believe we each got to be what we've always wanted to be. I never thought our ambitions would one day become a reality. I am so lucky to have met friends like u girls in highschool, because we always motivate each other to study kan? Kalau tak study hard, we probably wont be where we are today. We shall stay friends forever till marriage do us part. Kidding. haha.

AinSafian looked sweet in pink. She looks so happy to be there, which made me happy! hehe. Who'd have known my 2 bestfriends in UIA are engineering students. I'm so weird, i know. Ainsafian is my mother in uni because she's so great at cleaning up messes and she always brings food from home and jellybeans and candies and yummies to feed my sweet tooth. I miss all those tear-dropping gossip sessions with Ainsafian! i wanna have sleepovers in your room again! huhuhu...

Aienn, pakai contact lens nampak...hehehe. So pretty, warna grey pulak tu. I wanted to buy contacts for my graduation tau. But i had spent so much already on baju and kasut. Tak jadi la beli contacts. Kalau tak, i'll look as pretty as you kan? Aienn is also Aidil's lifesaver when he was all alone in uia and nak cari gang. haha. Thanks Aienn for taking care of Aidil when he was lost on the bridge and tak tau nak buat ape. =p.

Aidil wore my robe and Shahir's songkok for this particular photoshoot. hehe. I'm really glad we took this pic, because otherwise, all pics would look the same je. I should've betulkan the robe, because as you can see, the robe is kinda senget. and the songkok is too small for aidil's head. I also personally like the words "bless you" on top of our heads because I do hope we'll get all the blessings we need to be with each other together forever. =p.

This is the Graduation mascot. He's really a girl. I also like this pic because I think not many people have a picture with the mascot. Also, the mascot gave ryzal chocolates earlier, so "he" deserves "his" picture taken with ryzal and i. hehe.

kayak-ing with the kayak master, sakina! if it wanst for my kebaya, i'd join hanis and sakina in the kayak. Ruginya! the hot weather did not stop us from having some "wet" fun and looks like Hanis is getting more sportier than i am. damn. =p.

To sum up everrrrrything in one word: YaaaaaaaHoooo-ooooooooo!!!!