Thursday, November 20, 2008

hair lossssssiot!

Never set foot in-

  • beauty places own by ugly dying ducklings

  • places specializing in hair loss products

Take my advice or you will suffer the consequences.

Experiencing the unforgettable & making the most unthinkable mistake has been inevitable in my life. As I age, challenges become parasitical to I.

*breaks down in tears*

I accidentally let myself into this hell hole- thinking it was just an ordinary hair saloon, with the purest intention to get my hair washed.

Turns out, it was a "hair saloon" which sells hair loss products and treatments for hair loss and those treatments are not something I would need k!

Needless to say, I was being criticized from the moment I set foot in that saloon.

Rambut gugur..

Syampu ape u pakai..

U must treat ur hair from now..

F*** lady! Dont criticize my hair! Just wash and blow it; take my money and make me feel good about myself!!!!!

She didnt even do a good job at washing and blowing my hair as she was too busy criticizing my hair..... =((

That was the first time I ever came out from a BEAUTY saloon feeling UGLY.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008


Being alone has unfortunately became a routine in my life. Of course Ryzal can immediately relate to this, but he's a kid and I'm very excited to see what he will grow up to be, from all the crazymonkeyness and weirdness of Wan Utama. [Wan Utama or Wantama in short, is what I call my family- something like when u dont call ur dad- dad, but rather his first name, example "Hey Wan Abu Bakar."]

Very kurang ajar for orang melayu, but Wan Utama has no limitations no boundaries its amazing how we live like that. And we often talk like this with no full stops just words of sarcasm however very true because we do not lie as there is no need to lie when u simply speak your heart out and it does not matter what other people think of what we have to say. We do not care like that. We do not give a damn like that. We are not stressed out like that. We are so full of ourselves like that. What you think of us is none of our business. Cool?

So I wil be home alone tonite as I could not be bothered to inquire what Wan Utama has planned for the school holidays and Wan Utama never bothered to inform. We are ignorant like that. But when I was told about it, it was Ryzal who said: Arent you going to Penang and Alore-Sir-Tar (Alor Setar) with us?

Ryzal is orang putih like that. He cant speak Bahasa Melayu like that. Thats the end of the world for other families. Not Wan Utama.

Things to do tonite:

  1. Lock front door but dont have to lock or even close the bathroom door hey!

  2. Look out for hantu.

  3. Do fun projects.

  4. Go out til very late, watch midnight movies.

.....ngh I have work tomorrow morning. My parents are very very thankful for this I betcha.

Abort all plans except closing bathroom door.

Saturday, November 8, 2008


1) Take a recent picture of yourself or take a picture of yourself right now.
2) Don't change your clothes, don't fix your hair...just take a picture.
3) Post that picture with NO editing.
4) Post these instruction with your picture.
5) Tag 10 people to do this

Here are the rules:

Link to your tagger and list these rules on your blog.
Share seven facts about yourself on your blog – some random, some weird.
Tag seven people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs.
Let them know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their blogs.

This tanduk setan pic is unfortunately my latest pic. I know its edited and that's against the rules, but I just wanna show off what my new phone can do, ok? hehehehe...

What else does the rule say...? Oh link Farah.

Pastu... 7 facts about myself ke? *malu*

I bite my nails like its nobodys business and my mother threatened me to stop by saying I will never get married because when its time to sarung cincin, my jari will look hideous. I told mom I will wear kuku palsu.

Do u know those kacang tanah with yellow covered skin (the skin is made out of tepung and the yellow color is the artificial coloring)? When I eat those nuts, I will suck on the salty yellow colored skin, eat the skin and throw away the kacang.

I have a secret handshake with my little brother Ryzal. Whenever he wants anything from me or I want anything from him, either one of us must first perform the secret handshake. Its top secret stuff, no one in the family knows how the handshake looks like.

I secretly want to be a relationship expert, but nothing like a fortune teller u know. I want to do this for a living because this is my passion, advising people, but not advising people by producing legal opinion. I am however stuck with the latter.

Everybody thinks I am sombong when they first get to know me. I'm sorry I inherited a lot of my dad's traits although I look more like my mom. But if you catch me at the right time I'm actually quite chirpy like the Starbucks' baristas.

I am my mother's masseuse. She used to pay me rm5 when i was younger but now with the unpredictable harga minyak, she pays me rm10.

I am sucha makcik, I am really really really into fabrics and fesyen baju kurung! I think baju kurung is never outdated and it is so interesting. My interest extends to kebayas as well.

Pastu... tag 7 people ke?
1. Dinie
2. Ainsafian
3. Yaty
4. Shireen
5. Aadela
6. Ayah (I'm running out of people)
7. Kiki

Okay I hope everyone will have a better pic than mine! Byeeeee.... =)

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Losing mac............................

This morning, the hot fm a.m. crew talked about taking something that belongs to others. I was tempted to give them a ring while driving to work this morning, until they drew a context to that hot chat topic, i.e. taking someone else's partner or significant other.

It is understandable that in the malay realm the context of taking other's possessions are always being directed to someone's husband, wife, boyfriend, girlfriend; for the simple reason- those persons are always the subject of "theft".

Being a pseudo-malay [*find definition of pseudo-malay below], I struggle to understand how people can live with no boundaries and limitations when it comes to having desire towards another being. Ideally, many people blame it on the imperfections of being a human being, but I personally think as human beings we are granted with a faculty that has the ability to control those imperfections.

Having said that, I advice you to have firm principles in life, for you will be able to go through any temptations if guided by firm principles.

I always advise people on the dos and donts of minggling with another being, particularly the opposite sex. But at the end of the day, its a matter of principle. I shall not impose my beliefs on you, but I can keep reminding you.

If people were to have a clear idea of the boundaries they must observe, maybe we dont have to discuss the said hot chat topic.

But I reckon we will never have a perfect world.

So the context was the boundary that has been set and I oblige to it. For my story is in another context.

I lost my M.A.C lightful compact powder to someone. This is so devastating to me because as a student I dreamt of possessing this make-up brand. Everytime I had special occasions in school, I'd always use my mom's brands which were Estee Lauder, Dior, and other orang tua brands. But I secretly had my own favorite brand and I secretly wished that one day I will be able to own any make-up of M.A.C.

The day I bought my own M.A.C, was the day I ended all my M.A.C googling activities. For there was no need to google and stare at the pictures anymore. Ilya had witnessed my joy!(ful) moment so she can tell you it was not an ordinary purchase for me, it was an achievement.

Its okay if you cannot understand how women like Mama, Ilya and I get stirred and emotionally aroused when we puchase beauty products. But as far as we are concerned, make- ups are more than just the tool that makes the face pretty.

It hands you the confidence even on your roughest day. When I know I will not do well for a paper in law school, instead of sulking on how I should've studied harder or go out less, I get ready 30 minutes before the exam and doll myself up with make-up. I will then tell myself: If I am going to fail this paper, at least I do it beautifully. Silly I know, but make-up is my bestest buddy and my all time therapy.

Sometimes people take your stuff because they think you can easily afford it. Little do they know that people like me get what I want because I work for it.

This is a reminder sent to me to be a little more careful and not so trusting. Apparently people are only holy during the months of Ramadhan and Syawal.

*Pseudo-malay: English speaking malay with scripted perception about rempits and other malays' unacceptable social behaviour. Socializes in clean, civilized manner.